00:00Do you have another engine?
00:05Pardon?
00:07Do you have another engine?
00:09No, ma'am.
00:17Excuse me.
00:18What are you doing?
00:20It's a machine I just made.
00:22It feels like a hug.
00:23You want a hug, it feels really good.
00:30Are you waiting to meet somebody?
00:34No.
00:35I've trouble with automatic doors sometimes and I'm nervous.
00:38I'm autistic.
00:39Oh, come on.
00:40You just come along with me.
00:43Alright, come on.
00:45And I'll make sure that they stay open.
00:48You are safe now.
00:49You're safe.
00:50Thanks.
00:51Calm down.
00:52Calm down.
00:53It would be better if you could get her to sit calmly.
00:54The lighting spinning is good.
00:56The rolling too.
00:58Self-stimulation does seem to eventually calm the nervous system.
01:02It can be a way to compensate for not being held.
01:05Being held by another person is scary.
01:07But rolling or being held by surfaces produces the calming effect that ordinary children get from a hug.
01:13How old is your child?
01:15Well, I don't have children.
01:17No, I'm autistic.
01:19I'm autistic.
01:20And I need the sensation of being hugged.
01:23And I've developed a machine that I get into and hugs me and I'm different afterwards.
01:28I'm more social.
01:29How did you get cured?
01:32How did you get cured?
01:33Well, I'm not cured.
01:35I'll always be autistic.
01:37My mother refused to believe that I wouldn't speak.
01:41And when I learned to speak, she made me go to school.
01:45And in school and at home, manners and rules were really important.
01:50They were pounded into me.
01:52I was lucky.
01:53All these things worked for me.
01:56Everyone worked hard to make sure that I was engaged.
01:59And they knew I was different, but not less.
02:03And I had a guess.
02:04I could see the world in a new way.
02:06I could see details that other people were blind to.
02:09I worked summers at my aunt's ranch.
02:12I went to boarding school and college.
02:14Those things were uncomfortable for me at first, but they helped me open doors to new worlds.
02:21Excuse me, please, but we wanna hear everything.
02:25Really?
02:26Really?
02:27Come on.
02:28Tell them, please.
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