00:00I'm gonna do something scary. I'm going to go outside, walk down the street of my brand new neighborhood.
00:06You can see my- I'm shaking.
00:08I've met none of the neighbors to a mailbox that's on the street, right next to a very busy ice cream place
00:14so that I can mail a wedding invite.
00:17None of them know I have a birthmark and I am stressed.
00:23Here's the fit. I'm hoping that they look at my outfit and not my face.
00:28I show you guys my birthmark on the internet, but in person it is a completely different game.
00:35Okay, let's go.
00:41Oh, it's not super busy.
00:47But it's by a very busy intersection.
00:49Okay, there it is.
00:53So far, I don't see literally anyone.
00:57Almost there.
01:03Okay, that's not the end of it.
01:06I'm literally not shaking at all anymore.
01:10I think it's one of those things where you hype yourself up that it's going to be so terrible.
01:15Normally, there's tons of kids outside.
01:18My neighbors are outside. My neighbors across the street are outside.
01:22But I literally don't see anyone.
01:24Am I just lucky right now?
01:30That was easy.
01:34Now I feel silly.
01:38Things have always been on my terms when it comes to showing people my birthmark.
01:41I choose what video I want to post to TikTok.
01:45I choose if I want to put makeup on before going and seeing someone or having someone over.
01:51I choose where and when I want to show this part of myself to other people.
01:57It's hard sometimes to control that.
02:00If I'm in my pajamas and freshly showered and the doorbell rings, there's only so much you can control.
02:07We're all self-conscious about something.
02:09So when you are in control of the thing you are self-conscious about,
02:13or if you're in control of any adjacent part,
02:19it feels better.
02:21I know I can put makeup on if I want.
02:24I know I can put on a nice outfit to distract if I want.
02:28I know I could have driven down there if I wanted to.
02:33I can't control this.
02:35I can control everything else, or most of everything else.
02:42Do scary things.
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