00:00I feel like if I didn't put at least one part of my life,
00:06I feel like it's my fault.
00:08I don't deserve all of this.
00:10That's what I think.
00:12How do you do that?
00:14I have good people now that surround me.
00:23Art, thank you very much for this.
00:25Thank you so much.
00:27Okay, let's talk about hard work.
00:29You know, at first, when I saw the teaser of Heart World,
00:34I said, it's just another reality show, a fun show.
00:40But when I saw the whole teaser,
00:44you're opening up your world.
00:46You're opening up your heart.
00:48Isn't that scary for you?
00:52For me, being vulnerable,
00:56some people look at this as a weakness.
01:00But I feel like at the end of the day,
01:02it's still power.
01:04It may be soft power, but it's still power.
01:06We have to change the narrative of people.
01:08They feel that because you did something wrong,
01:12or because you showed a certain facet that's not good about you,
01:18you're a bad person.
01:20I don't believe in that.
01:22In fact, it was my husband who told me at my weakest point
01:24that my heart or your heart still shines at the end of the day,
01:28no matter what happens.
01:30Because I don't believe anybody is purely evil.
01:34I understand the whole cancel culture.
01:36I understand all of that.
01:38But at the end of the day, we're all humans.
01:40And this is why I wanted to come up with Heart World.
01:44It's because I wanted them to see that no one is perfect.
01:50Heart, indulge me with this question.
01:52Because this was asked at your press conference, at Heart World.
01:57And you talked about your ex-clamp.
02:02What is your status now?
02:06Maybe it's just like this.
02:08Because I get crazy when I think about it.
02:12All I can remember is the people I loved at the time.
02:17That's all.
02:19I don't think about what they are now.
02:24I don't read what people say online.
02:28But I will try to cherish the times that I thought I loved.
02:35And I think that will keep me sane.
02:38Sorry, Heart.
02:39Because I'm sure the camera can't see this.
02:42But I can see it now that you're still hurting.
02:45I mean, I can see it in your eyes.
02:47It's a slow process.
02:48It takes time for you.
02:50It's not that I haven't moved on.
02:52It's not that I haven't forgiven.
02:54It's just that's how I love.
02:58Nothing bad can be done to me.
03:00So, that's how I love.
03:03But I have to learn to slowly unlove people.
03:08And that's painful for me.
03:11And I asked you about the KP Awards.
03:15Truly, we don't have a problem with Tia.
03:19In fact, we're okay.
03:21She even used the hashtag that Heart Made Me Do It.
03:24So, I was very touched.
03:28But I really truly wish her the best.
03:30And honestly, like what I said earlier,
03:33I hope she'll be okay.
03:35And I hope she won't experience what I went through in the past.
03:39And I hope they'll support each other.
03:43I'll stay on my lane.
03:45Let everybody just do their thing.
03:48And don't fight each other.
03:50You'll hurt each other.
03:52Including the fans, right?
03:53Yes, all of them.
03:55You'll probably cease fire.
03:57What happened has happened.
03:59So, from here, let's just move on.
04:04I don't want anything else but my family.
04:07I don't want anything else but my career.
04:10I just want to enjoy what I have now.
04:13Time and time again, you've proven that there's really no hatred in your heart.
04:19Even to the people who fought with you in the past.
04:23You still deserve to live a good life.
04:26You still deserve to smile.
04:28Because not everybody is evil.
04:31And it's the same with not just towards me,
04:34but I look at it as well with the people from my past.
04:38The people that I have met.
04:40I've gone through a lot of contemplating.
04:43And I may have seen some of your friends that aren't your friends become your enemies.
04:50Sometimes you meet people that turn out to be emotional terrorists.
04:56But I don't hate anyone.
05:02Is that true?
05:04Yes.
05:05Is that true?
05:06I don't hate anyone because I believe in love.
05:12I really truly believe in love.
05:15And I feel like even for me being vulnerable, for me being angry,
05:22is because I just love very passionately.
05:26In your humor.
05:27Yes.
05:28And I would like to fight for everybody in my life.
05:32So, yes.
05:34I believe in love.
05:36I really believe that all the people that we are with,
05:40we love them.
05:42So, at the end of the day, I don't have any anger towards anybody.
05:48Not really.
05:49Because the love that I feel for everyone is still stronger.
05:53Future, past, or present.
05:55Because you will understand.
05:57Because if you love a person, you will understand.
06:00And if you love a person, you will still not believe that,
06:04sometimes I see people that I thought I knew.
06:08When I was with them, they were different.
06:09But now that I've seen them, they're different people.
06:11That's okay.
06:12Even if they're different people, they're not the ones I love.
06:15So, no matter what other people say that you think you know,
06:19it won't really matter because they're not the ones you're with technically.
06:24So, I try.
06:26I try to still see the goodness.
06:30But it's important to move on and eventually to forgive.
06:38But it's very important to never forget.
06:41Because when you talk about these things, you don't think about yourself.
06:46You think about the people that you're with, my family.
06:50So, that's probably number one.
06:52The constant.
06:53That's number one.
06:55Having said that, Heart, it gives you, what?
07:00The courage to cut out certain people in your life.
07:06I could say I'm getting stronger.
07:08I'm definitely stronger than before.
07:10But more of, maybe, because my heart is the one I'm letting go.
07:16You just need to think.
07:18If you can't think of yourself, of your loved ones,
07:20because when you love someone,
07:22think of the safety of your loved ones.
07:26Because the hardest thing is to see someone go through something
07:33that you can't do because they need to go through it
07:36and they need to heal on their own.
07:38No matter what you do.
07:40When I think about my family,
07:42that's when I automatically think,
07:44this can't go on.
07:45This is out.
07:46This can't go on.
07:47What's the catalyst?
07:48What pushed you to be that strong?
07:54Because at the end of the day,
07:57whatever it is, it's your fault.
07:59It's your fault.
08:01It's maturity.
08:02You can't,
08:03you can't just knock your head on the wall forever
08:07because you're thinking about what you really did.
08:11Why didn't they love you?
08:13Why this and that?
08:15Maybe I was lacking.
08:17You can't fault yourself.
08:20All the time.
08:21You need to forgive yourself.
08:23Accept it.
08:26No one is perfect.
08:28In every story,
08:29in every version of the story,
08:32we all have our shortcomings.
08:34Here, we have our shortcomings.
08:36It's just that there are people who are strong.
08:40They will take advantage.
08:42But for me,
08:43what saves me is,
08:45as long as my family is healthy,
08:47I'm okay.
08:48Even if you take everything,
08:49I'm okay.
08:50As long as my whole family is okay.
08:52I was taken aback earlier in the conversation.
08:57You have imposter syndrome.
09:00Yes, sometimes.
09:01I'm an over-thinker.
09:03Me too.
09:04Super people pleaser.
09:05For example,
09:06I didn't answer or I didn't look him in the eye.
09:09I didn't talk to him.
09:10I thought about it all night.
09:11Was he offended?
09:13Sometimes, because of that,
09:15and other things that I've been through.
09:17Sometimes, I would fault myself.
09:20When I hurt someone,
09:23I would really feel guilty.
09:25Even if I didn't do anything wrong,
09:27I would still feel guilty.
09:29Because I can't hurt other people.
09:31That's why I feel like,
09:33if I didn't put at least one part of my life,
09:38I would feel guilty.
09:40If I don't deserve all of this,
09:41I don't deserve all of this.
09:42That's how I think.
09:43But how do you do that?
09:46I have good people now that surround me.
09:48That surround yourself with good people.
09:50That tell me that I should enjoy it.
09:52But in a sense,
09:53maybe there's a reason.
09:54I feel like having anxiety,
09:57or having imposter syndrome,
09:59still at the end of the day,
10:00keeps you grounded.
10:01And I'm fine.
10:02I'm fine grounded.
10:03So you're keeping a little bit of that.
10:05Maybe it's okay.
10:06Maybe it's important.
10:07Because in this world,
10:08it's easy to get high ratings,
10:11popularity, fame.
10:14So maybe I'm okay.
10:16That's why I always say,
10:18fashion is my armor.
10:20Because truly,
10:22I'm very soft inside.
10:24I feel sometimes very small.
10:27So when I wear something beautiful,
10:29I feel very empowered.
10:30So it's not just an outfit,
10:32it's an armor.
10:33So that's what you're getting back at.
10:36And you do that really well, girl.
10:38That's why I'm like that.
10:41But earlier,
10:42one after the other,
10:44that's a lot.
10:45I mean,
10:46you deserve to be a local fashion icon.
10:50Pressure.
10:51It's pressure.
10:52I don't want that.
10:53Because,
10:54like I said earlier,
10:55I entered a fashion week
10:57because I felt like I wasn't doing anything.
11:01And I really don't want a career.
11:02I really don't want competition.
11:04I'm not like that.
11:05Because in the end,
11:06it's okay.
11:07I'll just stay here.
11:08Others will always do that.
11:10So that's why I entered the fashion week.
11:13So to be put on rankings and what,
11:15I'm very flattered.
11:17And I will celebrate it.
11:18Because your fans did that.
11:20But I'm really okay here.
11:23I'm happy here.
11:25But wait a minute.
11:26It's hard.
11:27Because looking at the clothes,
11:29I'm sure it's hard to conceptualize.
11:32I mean,
11:33just one outfit.
11:34Actually,
11:35it's easy to conceptualize.
11:36Now?
11:37I mean,
11:38for you.
11:39You're already used to it.
11:40The only reason why it's easy for me,
11:42even in the past,
11:43because I consider it an armor.
11:45Whatever I wear,
11:46it's made to make me feel good about myself that day.
11:50We're always fighting emotional distress.
11:53Or we're going through something.
11:54So I'll dress up so I feel better about myself.
11:58So that's why it's easy for me.
12:00Because it's therapeutic.
12:02Because what I saw earlier,
12:04the things that will not work in my mind,
12:08when you wear it,
12:09it works.
12:10The combinations,
12:12the colors.
12:13I guess that's what personal style is.
12:15Personal style was made for people to dress up their personality.
12:21So that's why I feel like it works for me.
12:24But fashion takes you a lot of places.
12:27Fashion can take you to a lot of places.
12:29Being yourself will take you to a lot of places.
12:32And in fact,
12:33you're going.
12:34Let's run down.
12:35You have a lot of sisters.
12:37You'll be in Hong Kong.
12:39You'll be in Dubai.
12:40You'll be in,
12:41oh my gosh.
12:42Your schedule is amazing.
12:44It's just right.
12:45I don't accept over and beyond like before.
12:49Because time with family is also very precious to me.
12:52So it's just right.
12:53We really manage it.
12:55But aren't you overworking yourself in the time that probably,
12:58for example,
12:59when you're in Paris,
13:00we saw the costume changes.
13:04Definitely overwork.
13:06But the 19 shows,
13:07actually the 23 shows,
13:09I canceled because health-wise and even physically,
13:13I can't go there anymore.
13:15But while I'm young,
13:17I will do it.
13:18But I will also listen to my body because it's my top priority.
13:21And eventually maybe lessen and do what I can do.
13:26But for now,
13:28But when you're home?
13:29But when I'm home,
13:30I'm also working.
13:32When Cheese is not around, I'm working.
13:34But when he's around, I disperse.
13:37Did you talk about that?
13:38Like when you're home and when I'm here?
13:41Nothing.
13:42We're not strict.
13:43Because we both understand.
13:45Sir is also a workaholic.
13:47That's right.
13:48So he understands,
13:49I understand.
13:50So if he needs to sleep,
13:52he sleeps.
13:53If I need to sleep earlier,
13:54I'll sleep earlier.
13:55We're very understanding with each other.
13:57And I feel like that's why it works.
13:59And it works for you.
14:01How much of yourself are you going to expose in HeartShield?
14:05Very much.
14:06Almost everything.
14:07Right?
14:08You said even CCTV almost.
14:10Yes, even CCTV.
14:11I think it will be released.
14:13But as much as possible, I try.
14:15Maybe with some topics,
14:17we won't go to the nitty-gritty.
14:19Because I don't want to down anyone.
14:23I also don't want certain sensitive topics for my family,
14:31for my husband.
14:32But just so they kind of get the story.
14:35Right?
14:36But definitely, it's not about pointing fingers at anyone.
14:41It's a self-reflection also.
14:43It's a diary.
14:44Even my mistakes.
14:45It's a diary.
14:46Usually, it was a diary.
14:47Wow.
14:48It's scary to expose a diary.
14:50Yes.
14:53Heart, I'm down to my last question.
14:56Of course,
14:57Christmas is a big thing for Filipinos.
15:01And for a while,
15:03it's a Paris-themed Christmas.
15:05Yes.
15:06And this time, this year.
15:07This time, of course,
15:10like last year,
15:11I will be with my family.
15:12But I will also have visitors from other places
15:15that will have Christmas
15:17so they can experience Filipino Christmas.
15:19So I'm excited.
15:20So you're planning for now?
15:22Everything is already planned.
15:23Wow.
15:24Heart, thank you very much.
15:25Thank you so much.
15:26Thank you so very much.
15:27Thank you. Welcome to Heart World.
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