00:00Now that you're 19, what do you know about love?
00:03And I'm talking about romantic love.
00:06Yes, I think it's not a joke.
00:09I think it's not something that's taken lightly.
00:13So, as much as possible, I try to avoid falling in love.
00:18Because I feel like if you're not ready, if you don't have your own life,
00:25you can become dependent on your partner.
00:30And I think that's not fair to you personally and to your partner.
00:35So, I believe that for me, I need to have my own life first before I become a wife.
00:41I respect that.
00:42But don't you feel pity for 19-year-old Jillian?
00:47The fun, the experience, the joy, the crushes, the little pain.
00:52Don't you feel that you're too persistent and you're not giving yourself a chance?
00:59Because your mom has lines like,
01:01I'm letting them, Jill, go out.
01:04She's the one pushing you, right?
01:07Actually, I admit that I'm kind of depriving myself because
01:11I really don't want to lose my focus on family and work.
01:17I think mostly because she has a deeper meaning.
01:23I think because my mother had children early on.
01:27So, she didn't experience the life that she really wanted.
01:32And she took care of us early on.
01:36She couldn't go out at the time.
01:39So, now, I want to work first.
01:43I want to give my family a lot of time.
01:46And let my mother do what she wants to do.
01:49And enjoy.
01:51I want her to enjoy first.
01:53And I want to work first for my future.
01:58Then, I'll give myself love and affection.
02:02When I've given everything to my family, especially to my mother.
02:05To a certain point, in that context,
02:08you're the mother of your mother.
02:10And that's quite interesting.
02:13She doesn't regret having you as her children.
02:18But she doesn't want you to lose
02:23what it is to be 15, 16, 17, 19.
02:29That's what I understand.
02:32She doesn't want to go through...
02:36We can't call it a mistake.
02:39It was just, you know, it was her life story.
02:42It was what it was.
02:44But as far as possible, that's what I think she avoided.
02:48Yes.
02:50I don't know if I'm clear with what I'm saying.
02:54It's just that, I feel like when I'm in a love life,
02:57because I'm serious when it comes to my relationships in life,
03:01my family, even my friends.
03:03My friends, we've been together for many years.
03:06I have friends who I've been friends with for 14 years.
03:11So, I feel like if I had a partner,
03:14I might be able to divide my time with him,
03:17and with my family, and with work.
03:19So, for now, I want to focus on family, work, and myself.
03:24Watermelon!
03:27That's your favorite, right?
03:29Yes.
03:31How did you know?
03:36How did you know?
03:47What do you do when someone wants to court you?
03:52Honestly, I let myself be.
03:56But...
03:58I don't want a deep, serious relationship.
04:03How deep?
04:06Have you held hands with a boy?
04:08Yes, I have.
04:12But...
04:13Yes, because you're 19, right?
04:15Yes.
04:16Does your mom know?
04:17I'm open to her, to everyone.
04:19She's like, Mom, I'm holding hands.
04:22Because when I was younger, when I was 14,
04:26that's when I was really scared of my mom and dad.
04:29Because they were strict back then.
04:31Maybe because I was still so juvenile, so immature.
04:35But now, I know what I want.
04:38Somehow, in my life, in my career,
04:40I'm the one who's strict with myself.
04:43They're like, go enjoy yourself.
04:45Does anyone talk to you?
04:47Tell me.
04:48That's how my mom is.
05:01You
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