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00:00Do you want to gain power?
00:03The prisoner looked at the bird in a strange state of absurdity and said his sentence repeatedly.
00:08The bird said something and shook his head.
00:10He had told the prisoner a while ago that she would not practice medicine.
00:15She wants to join the civil service.
00:17His decision was so unexpected for the prisoner that he could not say anything for the next
00:22few minutes.
00:23The bird could guess the situation he was in.
00:26After leaving this house, he had never heard the prisoner mention to anyone that he had
00:33worked as a government employee in a DC house for many decades.
00:38The prisoner had thrown away this part of his past from his house in the village with
00:43his new bed outside his house.
00:45The bird had heard the prisoner telling everyone and everyone proudly about his government
00:51employment until the age of nine.
00:53The prisoner was very proud of this reference to his personality and life.
00:58And as a 9-year-old girl, the bird was aware of the value and value of this feeling, which
01:03the prisoner had lost because of it.
01:05But in his life, he never thought that he would ever be able to do anything to repay
01:10this feeling of the prisoner.
01:12For many years, the prisoner was famous in this entire area because of his daal.
01:16The reference to his name was on the tongue of many people because of the best daal of
01:20this area.
01:21He did not gain such fame even by working in a DC house.
01:24The fact was that he had made a lot of progress after leaving the DC house.
01:29A business that started on a loan of a few hundred rupees had turned into a shop in a very expensive
01:35business area of Kunjanabad, Shahi in 12 years.
01:38Its cost was about 50 lakh rupees.
01:41He had his own double storey house, a car.
01:44He had a good relationship with the big people who came to his shop.
01:48Despite being a daalwala, his standing and sitting was among very good people.
01:52But despite this, the bird knew that the biggest grief of a prisoner's life was his
01:57departure from the job with this insult and in this uncivilized manner, which was done
02:02as a result of one-sided interrogation.
02:05He was sure that like him, his grandfather had also put a mental block on all these memories
02:10of his life.
02:11He did not want to relive his feelings of helplessness and humiliation again and again.
02:15And now the way the decision of the bird must have shaken him after so many years, it was
02:20not difficult for the bird to understand.
02:22My life's dream was that you become a doctor.
02:25The prisoner said without looking at him.
02:28He did not even know what poison was in the bird's eyes.
02:32I have fulfilled your dream.
02:34I have become a doctor.
02:36The bird was serious and said with confidence.
02:39My wish was that you serve humanity.
02:42The prisoner said while continuing his speech.
02:45He did not even realize how many dirty words he was repeating in front of the bird, which
02:49he had been hearing from the tongues of people covered in the newspapers for centuries.
02:53Humanity is not served only by becoming a doctor.
02:56I think I will serve humanity more as a civil service, especially in this society.
03:02The prisoner knew that he could not answer the bird.
03:06He had given the bird a watch of logic and now he was listening to logic from his mouth.
03:11The service of humanity is much better than the service of the government and its officials.
03:16I don't know which hole of pain had burst inside the prisoner, whose taste had not even
03:22reached the bird.
03:23In this small sentence, the life of the prisoner was not in danger.
03:27Its pain was a story.
03:29Its sorrow, pain, this class was incompatible.
03:33In front of the system, its helplessness and despair, where no person of the lower class
03:38could call for justice, but could not take the right.
03:41In this sentence, the history of helplessness and humiliation was hidden.
03:44The bird was also a part of it.
03:46It recognized it.
03:48You are right, Nana.
03:50The prisoner heard his grandson after a few moments of silence.
03:54But we should have a representation in the government and the government machinery so
03:58that humans can be seen there as well.
04:00Not God.
04:01A person cannot change the whole system.
04:04Then how does a fish have the power to pollute the whole water?
04:08As things change, a person's life passes.
04:11To become a part of change, to live a life and to strive for improvement.
04:15It is better than counting the evils of a society, sitting hand in hand, living a life.
04:20At an age, a person is beaten by his own taught logic.
04:23Just like a famous wrestler wins by taking a blow from his own belt in his arena, which
04:28was taught to him.
04:30I want to gain power.
04:32Because without it, I cannot fight the war of my survival with respect.
04:35I have lived with you in life.
04:37Being good and decent is a very good thing.
04:40But being good and decent is not a guarantee of a good life.
04:44In this society.
04:45It increases the dangers.
04:47It is considered a sign of weakness.
04:49The prisoner was hearing from his 23-year-old grandson what he had not taught him.
04:54Which was the gift of two cruel teachers like life and experience.
04:58I am eating duck during house job.
05:00Even though I am a topper.
05:02Those who have real principles, they have job security from now.
05:05I don't know if I will get a job or not.
05:07Those who have money, they have gone to America for residency without a house job.
05:11Or are going.
05:12We will do specialization from there.
05:14In 5-10 years, we will come back and do our private practice and make millions.
05:18And I will do a job in Pakistan without a salary.
05:22I will eat duck and study more.
05:24And even after 5-10 years, I will be eating duck like this.
05:27I will not have a degree outside.
05:29That's why patients will have doubts on my integrity and integrity.
05:32More than honesty, the most reliable thing for them is specialization from America or Britain.
05:37She was speaking very bitter truth with a lot of sweetness.
05:40It was not a provocation.
05:41It was just realism in her language.
05:43She knew the psychology and preferences of her people better than Khaidin.
05:48I will send you out to study further.
05:50Khaidin said this one time.
05:52She cried.
05:54Do you know how much money you will have to spend on me to send me out?
05:57In lakhs.
05:58I have lakhs now.
06:00Khaidin said without a doubt.
06:02In the form of house, shop and car.
06:04Not in the form of bank palace.
06:06The bird said.
06:07I will sell everything for you, bird.
06:10Khaidin held her hand and said in a very emotional way.
06:13The bird had a strange pain.
06:15On this expression of love.
06:17That's all I don't want now, Nana.
06:20I will not torture you at this age.
06:22You have taken as much burden as you had to bear.
06:25Now let me stand on my feet and get used to carrying my burden.
06:28The bird said in a two-stroke style.
06:31You had said this once.
06:33That there is nothing in life other than cups and rewards.
06:35But it is unfortunate not to achieve them while having the ability.
06:38Let me test my luck now.
06:41You have made me a very good and positive thinking person.
06:44For which I am very grateful to you.
06:46And I want to do that work now.
06:49Which will never leave me and you helpless and helpless in life.
06:53The bird was not consulting Khaidin.
06:56And neither was she taking his advice.
06:58Khaidin knew the bird so well.
07:00That he could recognize its greatness.
07:02Which was in its tone.
07:03Before talking to Khaidin.
07:05She had made a lot of effort and thought about this decision of hers.
07:08And if after hearing all this from you.
07:11I don't want you to test the competition.
07:14Khaidin had asked her once.
07:16Then I will not give.
07:18The answer came without a moment's delay.
07:21Khaidin was shocked.
07:23He was not expecting this answer from the bird.
07:25Looking at the face of the bird.
07:27He was sure that she would do what he had told her.
07:29After learning the first flight from her.
07:32Now he was asking for permission to go on a long journey.
07:36Khaidin's heart was full.
07:38How was it possible that he would not fulfill the bird's wish.
07:41And that was the focal point of his life.
07:43Khaidin's whole life.
07:45The happiness and unhappiness of the bird.
07:47Was associated with liking and disliking.
07:49Khaidin's life was full of pride.
07:51In every board exam.
07:53The picture of the position holder in the newspaper.
07:55Khaidin with great pride.
07:57He used to show it to everyone.
07:59For many days.
08:01In the CSS exam.
08:03Dr. Aks Murad Ali's first position.
08:05It was the first newspaper of Khaidin's life.
08:07He held it and cried like a child.
08:09And cried bitterly.
08:11He had never seen in his dream.
08:13Such a pride and such a fortune.
08:15Where did he think.
08:17That one day his bird.
08:19Will be such a deathly reference to him.
08:21He was serving the officers.
08:23All his life.
08:25He spent cooking food for the officers.
08:27Was ironing clothes.
08:29Was polishing shoes.
08:31He thought that his pride was only this.
08:33More than this.
08:35A man who belonged to a small village.
08:37What could a man think.
08:39Seeing that officer in his next generation.
08:41Khaidin had lived his life.
08:43It was no less than a miracle.
08:45And miracles happen naturally.
08:47Sometimes human effort.
08:49And intelligence are also included.
08:51For many weeks.
08:53People used to come to Khaidin's shop.
08:55In a few hours.
08:57Khaidin's status had changed in this market.
08:59Where his shop was.
09:01First Khaidin had a worthy officer.
09:03And now Khaidin was the grandson of an officer.
09:05The reference of the introduction had changed.
09:07Khaidin was still happy.
09:09He had reached his family.
09:11After many years.
09:13His brother and nephew came to his shop.
09:15Looking for him to congratulate him.
09:17Khaidin was shocked.
09:19What a cruel city.
09:21When you look back at the past.
09:23You want to live with them.
09:25Khaidin also did not understand.
09:27How to deal with these relatives.
09:29Who like the sun.
09:31Started to return to him.
09:33He fed them at the shop.
09:35And congratulated them.
09:37Khaidin took him to meet the bird.
09:39There was nothing left to go home.
09:41That night.
09:43The bird and Khaidin were awake again.
09:45The time spent in the village.
09:47They did not want to.
09:49They used to play with each other.
09:51Khaidin met his family.
09:53All the troubles and things.
09:55He shared with the bird for the first time.
09:57And he cried again and again.
09:59The bird kept playing with him.
10:01As time passed.
10:03He was getting old.
10:05He used to get angry.
10:07And he used to cry more.
10:09Look at the bird.
10:11Very few people get a name and title in life.
10:13But even less people.
10:15Can handle this name and title.
10:17Getting a title is a matter of honor.
10:19But this is also the biggest test.
10:21One night before leaving the bird.
10:23For the training of the civil service academy.
10:25Khaidin gave him a lot of advice.
10:27Like always.
10:29The bird kept listening to Khaidin.
10:31This power and observation.
10:33The bird has the ability to blind people.
10:35Intelligent and good people too.
10:37So be vigilant.
10:39Never forget your past.
10:41And serve this country.
10:43Khaidin stopped while talking.
10:45You will work with men like them.
10:47But bird.
10:49Don't become a man.
10:51Show courage and bravery like men.
10:53But without losing your nature.
10:55Work with respect and dignity.
10:57These are more important than name and title.
10:59The bird kept nodding his head.
11:01You know.
11:03What will I do first after getting a job?
11:05Listening to this.
11:07The bird asked Khaidin.
11:09What?
11:11He was shocked while talking to him.
11:13She smiled at him in a very mysterious way.
11:15I have to do two things.
11:17Khaidin was surprised.
11:19Which two things?
11:21I will tell you when the time comes.
11:23He said to Khaidin in a very strange way.
11:25Seeing his face.
11:27Khaidin thought about all these possible things.
11:29Which the bird could do.
11:31His mind could not think of anything.
11:33About which the bird had never mentioned.
11:35The bird could do that work after 7 years.
11:37First and second.
11:39For the first job.
11:41He asked Khaidin for permission.
11:43And not for the second job.
11:45It was the first disobedience of the bird's life.
11:47If Khaidin had known about it on time.
11:49He would not have let the bird take this step even after death.
11:51The bird was more stubborn than he thought.
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17:05Do you remember?
17:07I used to take you to school on cycle.
17:09Do you remember?
17:11The birds role про уша
17:13The birds role уша
17:15The men
17:19The men
17:21The men
17:23The men
17:25The men
17:27The men
17:29The men
17:31The men
17:33his soul, his life and the existence of his body.
17:37Now, after 26 years, standing in front of this mirror,
17:39looking at yourself, how patient I was.
17:42There was a burden from this.
17:44That one look that he had put on his face
17:46while screaming and shouting in front of this mirror,
17:49those few seconds inside him,
17:50like a noisy wave of the sea,
17:53had turned and come.
17:54Everything was bubbling.
17:56There was a storm that had come inside him.
17:58And there was a storm that had come in his eyes.
18:01There was no water.
18:02That which was raining from his eyes,
18:03if there was water, it would have flowed.
18:05It would have been wiped off by hand.
18:07Those were the waves that had entered this house
18:09and had burst as soon as they came to this mirror.
18:13And what else was there that did not flow out of these waves?
18:17Such a sea of pain had been trapped inside him for so many years
18:20that he himself had never known.
18:23There was torment.
18:24There was pain.
18:26While putting him in his body,
18:28while locking the silence on him,
18:31he had spent a lot of time.
18:33And that pain and torment had grown so much
18:35that a drop of it had turned into a sea.
18:39There, standing in front of this mirror at the door of this house,
18:42he was never involved in the desires of the life of a crybaby.
18:46To see this house again,
18:48to come there again,
18:49was also not in his life's desires.
18:51But he had brought it there with time.
18:53And how did he bring it?
18:55The torment and humiliation caused by the waves
18:58had now begun to take shape.
18:59Humbleness.
19:00Kindness.
19:01Gratitude.
19:02For the ruler of this universe,
19:03for this being,
19:04gratitude and kindness,
19:05which could turn the day,
19:07and which had turned the day.
19:10Falling on the ground on his knees,
19:12crying like a child,
19:14Khayadi had made the first prostration as the ruler of this house.
19:18That prostration never ends.
19:20If that kind, soft, strong hand of the bird
19:22had not started to tap his back in a happy manner,
19:25he had often forgotten all the instructions and advice of the bird.
19:29The bird had given him support and pulled him up.
19:32This hand had done all his life for him.
19:35He put his hand in his waist,
19:37sticking it to himself like a small child,
19:40both of them were going inside this house.
19:42And only one thing was forgotten outside.
19:44Bad luck.
19:47Bad luck.
19:48Nonsense.
19:49Misunderstanding.
19:50I don't know what was it that blindfolded him.
19:53Before entering the VIP lounge of Lahore Airport,
19:57Aibak Sherdil had thought about it,
19:59after seeing it with other officers from a distance.
20:02They were gathering at Lahore Airport to leave for Singapore.
20:06After 8 hours,
20:07they had to reach Karachi from Lahore and leave for Singapore.
20:10Pulling his trolley bag,
20:12Aibak Sherdil had entered the lounge,
20:14and he was about to take his first look at it.
20:17A Sikh wore a peach colored coat over his suit,
20:20and a green and peach colored printed silk scarf around his neck.
20:24He was stylish and attractive as always.
20:28And Sherdil could not take his eyes off it as always.
20:31He smiled at it,
20:33the same warm, beautiful, soft smile for which he was famous in the academy.
20:37Despite his efforts,
20:39Sherdil could not respond to this smile with a smile.
20:42For the first time in his life,
20:43he had taken his eyes off the box.
20:45Moving ahead in the lounge,
20:46he sat there,
20:47shook hands with other people,
20:49and then came back to the box.
20:51As always,
20:52he must have come at the end.
20:54The moment he reminded Sherdil with a smile,
20:56he was one of those who reached the end of every field trip during his training in the academy.
21:02Without saying anything,
21:03he sat near it on an empty sofa.
21:05He looked at the box carefully,
21:07and then said,
21:08Khairiyat.
21:09Sherdil turned his neck and looked at it.
21:11The woman whom he loved the most in his life,
21:14whom he was impressed with,
21:15was famous,
21:16was fascinated,
21:18moreover,
21:19he had never thought about any woman in his life.
21:22They were sitting on the sofa,
21:23sitting next to each other,
21:24looking at each other.
21:25From very close,
21:26they looked into each other's eyes.
21:28And the day he sat there,
21:30for the first time,
21:31Sherdil had started looking for the bird in the map of the city.
21:34Those sparkling, dark, deep eyes full of intelligence.
21:38He could not go any further than the eyes.
21:40He did not need any other comparison.
21:43Those were the eyes of the bird.
21:44On the contrary,
21:45there was nothing other than the eyes.
21:47He was blind.
21:48Sherdil looked away from his face,
21:50and turned his neck,
21:51as if he was trying to save his face from the eyes of the bird.
21:54His face repeatedly made him feel like he was similar to someone,
21:58but he could never think that
22:00he was similar to the central character of his life's most beautiful dream.
22:04Are you feeling well?
22:06This time he asked Sherdil again.
22:09Yes, okay,
22:10I'll have a cigarette and come.
22:12Without looking at him,
22:13he suddenly got up from his feet.
22:15Aks had seen him going towards the smoking area.
22:18He was in a blue casual jeans and a white shirt.
22:21He had his jeans pockets to toe.
22:23He was flashing a pack of cigarettes.
22:25Aks had a strange smile on his face.
22:28He had never loved anyone more than this man in his life,
22:32after Khaidin.
22:33Despite the fact that he could never get her,
22:37he was not for her.
22:39In this universe of love,
22:41we are like the sun and the moon.
22:43There is a connection,
22:44there is a distance.
22:46We sell ourselves,
22:47still we can't get you.
22:49I am always ordinary,
22:51you are special.
22:53But the heart is not ready for many things.
22:56She was 26 years younger than Sherdil,
22:58and despite her desire not to meet him for 26 years,
23:01she kept looking for him everywhere,
23:03in every person.
23:05She kept a soft corner for every Aibak.
23:08The stormy love with Aibak Sultan was also because of his name.
23:12She was not ready to listen to him consciously,
23:14but her unconsciousness knew that she was going to Aibak's name,
23:17like a result.
23:19Aibak Sherdil was his first best friend.
23:21The window that helped him look into the outside world,
23:24from which he could never forget the world he was seeing.
23:27If this scary incident had not happened,
23:30then 26 years ago,
23:31if he had a holiday,
23:32then a few weeks would have been the best holidays of his life.
23:35He had explored the world and many parts of life with Aibak Sherdil.
23:40Friendship,
23:41loyalty,
23:42disloyalty,
23:43new relationships.
23:44Even as a child,
23:45he had gone through all stages of his relationship with Aibak.
23:49He started seeing her again.
23:51In the same casual way,
23:52walking fast,
23:53lost in his thoughts.
23:54He was still sitting there,
23:55causing many women's eyes to wander.
23:58He was unaware of this.
24:00A smile was on the lips of the photo.
24:02I don't know why,
24:03but he had never been jealous of Sherdil
24:05as the center of women's eyes.
24:07It should have been,
24:08but it was not.
24:09He sat next to her again.
24:11There was silence between the two of them.
24:12They were not used to this silence.
24:14Do you want to say something to me?
24:16The photo finally broke this silence.
24:18Sherdil had thought of a statement,
24:20but then, as if taking precautions,
24:21he said,
24:22Yes,
24:23say.
24:24Aibak Sherdil looked up and saw her.
24:26They kept looking into each other's eyes.
24:28Then Sherdil took her hand in his both hands in a very unnoticeable way.
24:33Don't do this, bird.
24:35He said it in a very deep voice.
24:39The photo looked at this mirror while getting off the car,
24:42which was placed near the door of this house,
24:44and in which the back of Sherdil and Shehwane were visible.
24:48Standing next to each other,
24:49he was welcoming the commissioner and his wife,
24:52whose car was standing right in front of the entrance of the house in the Porsche.
24:56Her car was on the left side of the Porsche roof.
24:58She could see this mirror there,
25:00and she could also see Sherdil and Shehwane from there.
25:04With a deep breath, she was able to control the heartbeat of the heart.
25:08In the second deep breath,
25:09she tried to erase everything from her mind,
25:12whose screams.
25:13In front of this house,
25:14on a pile of luggage on the top of Biruni,
25:16from a night spent with her mother,
25:18everything was scattered inside.
25:21Everything had begun to disappear.
25:23It was a common government residence for her now.
25:26She had lived in dozens of such buildings.
25:29There was nothing extraordinary for her in this house either.
25:31An ordinary old but magnificent building.
25:33A similar event that she had attended many times.
25:37An old Porsche,
25:38and an old mirror next to the entrance of the house.
25:41With this mental block,
25:42she had seen only this from a sensory point of view.
25:45Without paying attention to anything,
25:47ignoring everything,
25:48people,
25:49places,
25:50talks,
25:51things.
25:52I will not remember any pain.
25:54I will not think about anything from the past.
25:57What is my schedule for tomorrow?
25:59What work do I have to do after dinner from here?
26:01She was constantly distracting her mind,
26:03with great success.
26:05She was overcoming one obstacle after another,
26:07until she had seen Sherbano and Sherdin together.
26:10She had seen Sherbano in pictures.
26:12She had seen him from a distance with Sherdin in a few functions.
26:15But today,
26:16for the first time,
26:17she was going to see him so closely.
26:18She was going to meet him.
26:20That Babadol,
26:21who was one of the few fascinations of her childhood,
26:24and who was related to the person who added the blackest thing in her life.
26:28And who was a part of this person's life,
26:30who loved her very much.
26:32As soon as she saw him in the mirror,
26:34she looked away from him.
26:35She took a picture,
26:36as if she was trying to take care of herself.
26:39For a moment,
26:40she raised her head and looked at the sky,
26:42from where a light drizzle was coming.
26:44That rain,
26:45which was not raining from her eyes,
26:46started raining from somewhere else.
26:49She tried to talk to the driver,
26:51who had come out to open the door for her.
26:54To take care of herself,
26:55she was taking the support of everything.
26:57A light drizzle of water,
26:59had washed her face,
27:00hair and clothes a little.
27:01And while welcoming the Brahmadevi commissioner and his wife,
27:04Sherdil had turned his neck at this very moment and saw her.
27:07She was wearing a black chiffon dress,
27:09embroidered with black pearls,
27:12which was making her suitable body,
27:14a little more suitable.
27:16Usually,
27:17the thick black hair,
27:18at this time,
27:19in the form of a loose bangle in a black net,
27:21behind her neck,
27:22had highlighted her thin and long neck.
27:25Sherdil looked at her,
27:26it was a difficult task,
27:27and she had done it with difficulty.
27:29She had come with the commissioner and his family.
27:32Instead of getting out of the commissioner and his wife's car and going inside,
27:35for a few moments,
27:36they had stopped at the Brahmadevi.
27:38After welcoming the commissioner,
27:40Sherdil had left the Brahmadevi,
27:41and had moved towards his car.
27:43While going in the opposite direction,
27:44in a strange way,
27:45he had a tissue paper towel in his pocket.
27:48The helpless Sherdil had noticed this,
27:51from which he had moved away.
27:53He had not even waited for the commissioner's car to move away from the porch,
27:56and for Aks to come in front of the car.
27:59She could not see that,
28:00when Aks came out of the car,
28:02he had gone to welcome her.
28:04While going from a distance,
28:05she wanted to look away from Sherdil,
28:07but she was not able to.
28:09While talking to the commissioner's wife,
28:11in a strange way,
28:12she was looking at Sherdil,
28:13going towards the car,
28:14sitting in a long cover.
28:17While talking to the driver behind her,
28:20she had seen Aks Murad Ali in a strange way.
28:23While talking to the driver,
28:25Aks was standing in front of Sherdil.
28:27Both of them were looking at each other,
28:29and were smiling.
28:30Aks had looked at him,
28:32took care of himself,
28:33and then looked at him.
28:34They had come so close to each other,
28:35and stood so close to each other.
28:37Many times,
28:38they were standing so far away from each other,
28:40and were looking into each other's eyes.
28:43And Aks Murad Ali,
28:44had never seen a glimpse of recognition in these eyes.
28:47Neither for Sherdil,
28:48nor for this 17-year-old Aks Murad Ali,
28:50who had been shocked to hear
28:52the name of Aibak Sherdil
28:53in front of an intercollegiate,
28:55who had stood behind the rostrum
28:57in front of his career's worst speech competition,
29:00and had spent every moment in fear
29:02that he would now recognize the bird.
29:05And why didn't he think
29:06that he would recognize it?
29:08Eight years of the bird's life
29:10had passed in thinking about Aibak Sherdil.
29:13Even after eight years had passed,
29:14if someone had asked him about Aibak's appearance,
29:16he would have told the details of his appearance in seconds.
29:19From his new nails,
29:20to the labels and bands
29:21of his under-used sneakers and sportswear,
29:23he remembered everything.
29:25These few weeks he spent with Aibak,
29:27were like diary entries in his mind.
29:30Each and every sentence of Aibak,
29:31each and every thing,
29:32then if he was thinking
29:33that he would remember Aibak in the same way,
29:36then this was not a big misunderstanding.
29:38Eight years is not such a long time
29:40that Aibak could not find any memory
29:42in the outline of his face.
29:43But Aibak Sherdil did not recognize him.
29:46He could not recognize him by name
29:48because Sherdil called him a bird
29:50or Fatima.
29:51The second part of his name
29:53with which he would go after the bird
29:55and would be recognized,
29:56in the name of Aks,
29:57he was not called anywhere
29:58except in the school.
29:59Neither at home nor in the family.
30:01Fatima was the part of his name
30:03whose addition was after his birth,
30:05in the name of Aks,
30:06the crime of his family,
30:07he was talked about the difficulty
30:08in calling him.
30:09Sherdil named him with great interest
30:11but within a few weeks
30:12he realized that
30:13his family and the villagers
30:15could never give him this name
30:17with the right words.
30:18Sherdil did not change the name of the bird,
30:20he just added Fatima with it.
30:22But he was known as Aks Murad Ali
30:24in the school and college.
30:26Aibak also used to call him
30:28a bird instead of Aks or Fatima.
30:30The bird was still convinced
30:32that he would reach the bird
30:34as soon as he heard the word Aks
30:36and he would recognize him
30:37as soon as he looked at his face.
30:39This recognition never scared the bird
30:41if he had not seen Aibak
30:43standing near the railing that night.
30:45Even in the realm of fear and terror,
30:47Aibak's feeling of helplessness
30:49was enough to bury the bird.
30:51His screams saved the bird's life
30:53but in these 8 years,
30:55many times the bird was remorseful
30:57with this one look
30:58which he saw Aibak putting on himself.
31:00The state in which she had come in front of Aibak,
31:02she never wanted to come in front of him
31:04in this condition.
31:05And the fear of recognizing him
31:07was the same
31:09as the fear of recognizing him
31:11as soon as he heard the word Aks.
31:13In these few wonderful weeks,
31:15the memories spent together
31:17were not related to time.
31:19Even after this fierce competition,
31:21he was sure that if Aibak
31:23did not remember him immediately,
31:25then she would have remembered him
31:27after going home.
31:29And if nothing else,
31:31at least the face of the bird
31:33would have stuck in his eyes.
31:35This misunderstanding of his
31:37was not of any kind.
31:39He did not believe in the beginning
31:41that he really did not remember him.
31:43For many weeks, he ignored him
31:45only to the extent that he
31:47would definitely recognize him now.
31:49If he could not recognize the face of the bird,
31:51then at least 7-8 years ago
31:53he would have some memory
31:55of this fierce competition.
31:57And when Aksmad Ali finally believed
31:59that Aibak Shehzadin did not remember
32:01anything about him,
32:03then she was left shaken.
32:05Aibak Shehzadin did not have
32:07a weak memory.
32:09At least Aks had no doubt
32:11about this.
32:13Despite this, not remembering him
32:15was just an expression of one thing.
32:17The bird was a time pass for Aibak.
32:19She did not have the importance
32:21that Aibak had for him.
32:23And why did she have importance?
32:25After all, he was a young boy
32:27who belonged to an elite class
32:29who had a collection of cousins
32:31and friends who were
32:33very close to him.
32:35The bird was a companion
32:37who was found in a small city
32:39to escape from Boreas.
32:41But she was not his friend
32:43whom he missed by going
32:45back to his friends in Edison.
32:47He was one of the best things
32:49of the bird's childhood.
32:51But how could the bird
32:53have a good memory for Aibak?
32:55Many years later, Aksmad Ali
32:57sat down and saw the relationship
32:59between him and Aibak
33:01and Aibak could not even remember
33:03him in that competition.
33:05She had no doubt about her
33:07face and appearance.
33:09But she certainly wanted
33:11that men could not ignore her.
33:13She was not so ordinary
33:15that Aibak would not remember her.
33:17And there was no question
33:19of considering her important.
33:21Here it was just a matter
33:23of remembering.
33:25And Aksmad Ali was not that.
33:27Very few people remember
33:29Aibak as an ordinary
33:31and Jeet as an extraordinary.
33:33Aksmad Ali tried to
33:35solve this problem with Khaidin.
33:37There is a boy in the academy
33:39with me, Nana.
33:41Seven or eight years ago,
33:43he won that competition
33:45by defeating me in
33:47an intercollegiate competition.
33:49But I am surprised that
33:51I do not remember him,
33:53although I remember him.
33:55He told Khaidin his problem
33:57of not recognizing me.
33:59Otherwise, how is it possible
34:01that I do not remember him?
34:03I shared my guess with him.
34:05People do not pay attention
34:07to the faces and names of losers.
34:09You did not even take the second
34:11or third position.
34:13Then why would he remember you?
34:15There are many losers.
34:17What was the truth that Khaidin
34:19had broken like a mystery
34:21and put in front of the bird?
34:23Aibak Sherdil was an ordinary
34:25person who tried to remember
34:27the winners and forget the losers.
34:29He was used to looking up,
34:31not down.
34:33Aksmad Ali had gained
34:35another lesson in life that day.
34:37She will pay attention to the faces
34:39and names of all those people
34:41in her life whom she will defeat.
34:43She never wanted to face
34:45a stranger like Aksmad Ali in her life
34:47who would come in front of her
34:49like a dark horse and
34:51do not tell her anything about it.
34:53Aksmad Ali wore a black
34:55dinner suit with a red strip tie,
34:57silver couplings and a crystal
34:59tie-pill and was standing in front
35:01of her in his own way,
35:03which was the reason for his fame.
35:05No other commoner in the academy
35:07could stand in front of Sherdil
35:09in his dressing sense.
35:11Aksmad Ali had not seen a man
35:13more handsome than Sherdil
35:15in the service of so many years.
35:17Aks had seen Sherdil with
35:19a deep smile and tears in his eyes.
35:21His desire to stop his tie
35:23from flying had been
35:25suppressed with such impudence
35:27as it had risen.
35:29Now there was an exchange
35:31of good and bad words between
35:33the two. The same formal
35:35sentences and the same
35:37unsaid meaning.
35:39He was always talking
35:41with his eyes on his face.
35:43He had never been able
35:45to reach his heart
35:47from his face.
35:49It was very difficult to
35:51understand what was
35:53happening on his face.
35:55His white pearl studs in his
35:57eyes, his eyes decorated
35:59with shiny black eyeliner,
36:01his red lipstick colored lips,
36:03his milky teeth, which
36:05made his smile even more attractive.
36:07The small drops of rain
36:09and its drops were shining
36:11on his hair and face.
36:13For a moment, Sherdil's heart
36:15wanted him to raise his hand
36:17and wipe his tears with his pores.
36:19Just for a moment. Then he
36:21looked away, pulling out a tissue
36:23from his pocket and moving it
36:25towards Aks, he said,
36:27You took a big risk.
36:29Aks held the tissue and
36:31in the same unnoticed way
36:33asked his face and head with
36:35some surprise. What?
36:37They were walking together now.
36:39They came out of the car in the rain.
36:41Sherdil had taught him some
36:43seriousness while walking. So?
36:45What if the make-up had flowed?
36:47This time, Sherdil's lips and
36:49eyes were full of mischief.
36:51Despite wanting that he was
36:53wearing something else
36:55apart from a black eyeliner and
36:57lipstick. Yes, it was a risk.
36:59If the make-up had cleared,
37:01you would have stared at me more
37:03than you are staring now.
37:05Aks wrapped the tissue in his hand
37:07with great care and
37:09kept it in his pocket.
37:11The answer was the same as
37:13Sherdil had hidden.
37:15He was used to making fun of him.
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