00:00You just have to learn to get up every morning and choose to try, because I've got two other
00:11kids and they need me.
00:13And it's been really tough learning to still be, you know, to not have that feeling of
00:23like you want to give up.
00:26It's tough.
00:27It's a tough journey.
00:29It's only possible because I'm surrounded with like family, supportive family and friends.
00:33I've had support.
00:35So I'd put that to that, you know, like that's how you get through it, by through support
00:41and through just trying every day.
00:45Just talking about it in the past tense, it's so difficult.
00:49We're always going to be those people who lost their son, their nephew, their cousin.
00:56My kids are devastated.
00:58My daughter, her birthday was last week and it was her first birthday without him.
01:04And she almost didn't want to celebrate because he's not going to be around.
01:11Some people, they go through life without having to deal with something like this.
01:15First time they lose someone, it's probably their grandma, when they're adults themselves.
01:21To watch my eight-year-old daughter or my other nephew, who's nine, just go into the
01:27cemetery as if it's a normal thing to do, it's just so painful.
01:32I just can't believe it.
01:34Every day I wake up and the first thing I think about when I'm brushing my teeth is
01:39that he's not going to brush his teeth.
01:40He's not going to wake up and get ready for his day.
01:45It feels unreal.
01:46That's how it feels.
01:49My brain cannot comprehend that Eddie's not coming home.
01:55He's not going to wake up.
01:59I can't process it.
02:04I just feel like it's helpless, it's hopeless, it's frustrating.
02:10I just am clutching at anything, really, with the hope that it's not going to take forever
02:18to find who did this.
02:20I think that I put so much on the fact that these people who did this also have families.
02:27Surely, somebody would know.
02:29That's my whole point.
02:30I'm going over it in my head every time when I think about my child and what it feels like
02:36to miss him and to miss his smile and to miss his laugh, to miss his voice.
02:41I just think somewhere on the opposite of that, there's a mom or a parent who knows
02:47that their child was involved in this.
02:50On that day, there were so many people by the park that night.
02:56I know a lot of these people haven't come forward because they're like,
02:59well, it's got nothing to do with me.
03:02I don't have anything to say that would be of value.
03:06But how do you know?
03:08I can just put my trust in a team that's investigating this, and I know that they know what they're doing.
03:15And so any information, even what you think is not relevant, could be.
03:21Just do it.
03:22If you were there, and you know that the police have been appealing for a year for you to
03:28come out, you know, it's perhaps maybe an hour in your day to help solve a case.
03:36Why wouldn't you do it?
03:37Why wouldn't you want to do that?
03:40That's the thing that I think about.
03:42Because I should think that if I was on the other side of that, I would come and I would
03:47say I was there, even if what I saw is not going to solve anything.
03:51But at least it's eliminated.
03:53We've made that clear that, yes, you were there, and you saw Eddie, perhaps you saw
03:57him dancing or, you know, laughing with his friends, but you didn't see what happened.
04:02At least you came, you know?
04:08I do.
04:09I really do.
04:10I'm never giving up on hope.
04:13I really, you know, like, it's just something that my heart won't do.
04:17I can't give up.
04:19I trust the team that's investigating this, and even though we've had our issues and frustrations
04:25about how long it's taken and the pace of the investigation, I trust that they are doing
04:32the best that they can do.
04:33And I just wait eagerly for the day that I can hear them tell me that we have something.
04:42That's the day I wait for, and I'm hopeful.
04:44I really am.
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