00:00But at least, I'm not saying it's right that you didn't take care of his relationship.
00:08I'm not saying it's right that you don't care about him, you just want to play basketball.
00:14But at least, you acknowledged that and you separated him and you freed him, right?
00:22The other guy, nothing happened but he's still not giving up his freedom.
00:26That's why you two can't move on.
00:30At least, the freedom, that's all.
00:34At least, he chose us.
00:38You were also honest with him.
00:41Yes, I told him.
00:42You didn't make it longer.
00:44Nothing happened.
00:46No, nothing happened.
00:48We were just playing.
00:49But what did he feel when he said,
00:53let's break up?
00:55Was it freedom or was it painful?
00:59Of course, it was freedom but the pain will not go away.
01:02Because, of course, the game, you can say it but why?
01:10I can understand him while he's playing.
01:14That's painful.
01:15Especially if, sometimes, you don't feel the pain right away.
01:20How he said it and where you were when he said it.
01:24What did you do when he said it?
01:26What happened to you?
01:28I was working.
01:30He was chatting and he didn't want to talk.
01:32Just chatting?
01:33Yes, just chatting.
01:35I was working and I took a break from work.
01:37I said, I'll think about it later.
01:40I didn't want to bring him to work because I was a call center at that time.
01:44I said, I'll fix it tomorrow or later when I get home.
01:47But when we tried to fix it on the 28th,
01:51we really decided to separate.
01:56It's very anxious during work.
01:58Right? Because you still have work to do.
02:01Someone texted you, I don't want it anymore.
02:03It's confusing.
02:05After one year and four months.
02:07Even if you force it later.
02:09It's already there.
02:11Your brain is already doing that.
02:13It's being blended.
02:15Throats.
02:17After that, what effect did it have on you?
02:19Did you not fall in love with men?
02:21Or did you fall in love with giving feelings?
02:26I don't want to fall in love again.
02:28Because later, I'll fall in love.
02:30That's the painful part.
02:32You're the only one who fell in love.
02:34I don't want to give like this anymore.
02:36Because it's a waste.
02:38I went to the point that
02:40whatever you give me,
02:42I'll return it.
02:44Reciprocate.
02:46Because I'm running out of time.
02:48I'm always giving.
02:50Time, understanding.
02:52I thought about
02:54whatever you give me,
02:56I'll return it.
02:58But...
03:02I already believe
03:04in myself.
03:06As much as possible,
03:08I will not allow my trauma
03:12to make it hard for myself
03:16to bring out the goodness
03:18of love.
03:20Just because of what this guy did,
03:22I will stop
03:24bringing out love.
03:26I will stop
03:28bringing out the goodness
03:30of my next love.
03:34If that's me,
03:36just let it flow.
03:38Just love again.
03:40And again, and again,
03:42and fail again, and then try again.
03:44Because the next one is pitiful.
03:46He didn't do much.
03:48And you too, you won't be content
03:50if you know that someone is stopping you.
03:52You can tell yourself,
03:54this is not me.
03:56And for the rest of your life,
03:58it's stuck to you.
04:00Even if you're gone,
04:02the effect is still there.
04:04The pain is still there.
04:06The trauma is still there.
04:08It affects everything you do.
04:10I understand why
04:12your effect is normal.
04:14Because trauma will make you sad.
04:16But I hope you can address it
04:18and stop bringing out your love.
04:20And it's better to think
04:22that maybe this happened
04:24because there's
04:26a better alternative.
04:28It's better
04:30that at least
04:32you're looking forward
04:34that
04:36sometimes things really happen.
04:38You're given time
04:40so that...
04:42You're judging. I don't want to distract you
04:44while you're judging.
04:46I'll get you a better person.
04:48I'll put a cross so that you'll be gone.
04:50And you're still young.
04:52You're only 19 years old.
04:54You still have a long way to go.
04:56You still have a long way to go.
04:58Yes.
05:00I'm also thankful
05:02because I was able to say
05:04that maybe
05:06this is what
05:08separated us so that
05:10I can see who's right for me.
05:12Hello?
05:14Hello? What did you say?
05:16Hello?
05:18What did you say, Emil?
05:20What effect did his absence have on you?
05:22Did you invite him?
05:24Because you said
05:26he's a good girlfriend.
05:28Yes. I miss him
05:30when I'm alone.
05:32I miss
05:34the times we spent together.
05:38You didn't text him
05:40even once
05:42that you're separated.
05:44I texted him, but he texted me,
05:46there's a court case against you.
05:48There's a court case against you.
05:50There's an available court there.
05:52No, Emil. Why did you text him
05:54that you're separated?
05:56Why didn't you tell him in person?
05:58Yeah.
06:00Oh, that's a good one.
06:02I texted him first
06:04that day.
06:06The next day, I told him
06:08that I met him.
06:10I explained to him
06:12until he agreed.
06:14Because there were a lot of times
06:16when I was separated.
06:18I could see
06:20that I was having a hard time.
06:22He didn't want to talk to me
06:24because he thought
06:26he could understand me.
06:28But,
06:30I let it go in the end.
06:32Then, we got back together.
06:36So, don't blame yourself.
06:38Just think about it.
06:40You just fell in love.
06:42And whatever happened
06:44to your love,
06:46whether you like it or not,
06:50don't let it
06:52make you less loving
06:54in the future.
06:58Do you have asthma?
07:00He's crying.
07:04Do you want a hug?
07:08No.
07:16Give him a hug, Emil.
07:18No, give him a hug.
07:20He's crying.
07:22After the recording,
07:24he hugged Amber.
07:26I'm just kidding.
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