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00:05 Thank you so much.
00:06 Wow.
00:07 Please, please.
00:08 Thank you.
00:09 How are you?
00:10 I'm good.
00:11 I'm so happy.
00:12 And you're beautiful.
00:13 Not really.
00:15 [LAUGHTER]
00:16 Wait.
00:17 While we're talking about beauty,
00:20 from the very beginning, did you always know that you were beautiful?
00:25 And you still are, huh?
00:26 Oh, well, thanks.
00:27 [LAUGHTER]
00:28 When I was a little girl, people would--
00:30 I would always remember that people would tell me,
00:33 "You look like a doll."
00:35 That's what I would always hear people say.
00:38 So in my mind, yes.
00:40 But as I got older, I got more awkward as a teenager.
00:44 So there was this girl in school who was the most popular.
00:48 She was like half Filipino, half American.
00:50 She was the most popular in school.
00:52 In America?
00:53 No, in Clark Air Base.
00:54 Oh, in Clark.
00:55 OK.
00:56 And I was her twin.
00:58 It means we look exactly alike.
01:00 But I was the most shy girl.
01:03 So when I discovered showbiz, everyone was like, "Huh? Why her?"
01:09 She didn't have any friends.
01:12 I wasn't--
01:13 You were not the other girl, in other words.
01:16 Yes.
01:17 So I didn't deserve to be an artist.
01:19 But eventually, with showbiz,
01:21 I started as a quasi-comedian
01:25 because I'm not good at Tagalog.
01:27 So I was the finale of DATS! Entertainment in DATS! Acting
01:31 because they always know the "palpak."
01:34 So they laughed until my confidence was built.
01:38 And then I ended up doing "Over the Bakod" and all of these other things.
01:42 So I think with time, I gained confidence.
01:45 But in my mind, I don't really consider myself beautiful.
01:49 I consider myself like a beautiful soul,
01:53 but not a beautiful--
01:54 You're both.
01:55 Well, maybe now I can accept that more,
01:58 but not so much before.
01:59 I mean, you are the other Filipina to hit the cover of Time magazine, Donita.
02:06 I mean, it's beautiful.
02:08 But I love listening to you.
02:09 Thank you.
02:10 Talking about this.
02:11 Because it's not like us,
02:13 we're just imagining, especially Chang Susan.
02:15 But you're just really beautiful inside and out.
02:19 Thank you so much.
02:20 That means a lot to me.
02:21 I remember our last conversation.
02:22 But before we go there,
02:23 how was the journey to finding love again?
02:29 Oh, gosh.
02:30 I just--
02:32 I still have this dream.
02:35 I still have this dream.
02:37 I can't believe that I have a husband again.
02:40 Why?
02:41 I don't know.
02:43 I've been through so much before I got here.
02:47 And I think you saw a little bit of that.
02:49 There was like a lot of depression that I went through.
02:52 And for somebody, I think, as jolly and as happy as I am,
02:57 to go through depression, I couldn't understand it at the time.
03:02 But now, I don't regret or have regrets about what I went through.
03:09 Because now I feel like I'm whole again.
03:11 Actually, that happened before I met Felson.
03:14 I feel like now I know who I am.
03:17 My identity is not in another person.
03:20 Because there was a time when my husband left me.
03:23 Who am I now?
03:25 I was left behind.
03:28 I was judged by people.
03:32 "Oh, for whatever reason, she lost weight. She's not pretty."
03:37 So, in a sense, your identity is like,
03:40 "Okay, am I not whole if my identity is not complete?"
03:46 You start believing all these voices.
03:49 When you meet again, you believe somehow, right?
03:53 Yes. There was a lot of internal struggles.
03:56 But eventually, I just decided to...
03:59 Well, I know this sounds really corny,
04:01 but I went back to my first love, Lord Jesus.
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