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00:00:26 When a polar bear gives birth, she typically has two cubs.
00:00:30 To keep them safe from the dangers of the world, she'll stay with them in the den until they can survive on their own.
00:00:37 It's a sacrifice she makes, because if something were to happen to her, then her cubs would surely die.
00:00:45 But if something were to happen to her cubs, what would become of the mother?
00:00:51 Could she live with it?
00:00:53 [crying]
00:01:00 [screaming]
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00:02:48 Elizabeth Erin Bolin, born at 6.36pm, two weeks ahead of schedule.
00:02:54 Six pounds, eight ounces.
00:02:57 That doesn't sound like much, but to me, it's everything.
00:03:02 And now, you're my whole world.
00:03:05 I would do anything to protect you.
00:03:09 My perfect baby girl.
00:03:11 I'm going to be the kind of mother for you that I never had.
00:03:14 You're going to have a great childhood.
00:03:17 You have two parents who love you very much.
00:03:21 When I met your father, it was love at first sight.
00:03:25 A year later, we had the perfect wedding, and found the perfect house,
00:03:32 and the perfect neighborhood, and the perfect town.
00:03:36 And now, we have you.
00:03:39 I just didn't know how exhausted I would be.
00:03:44 [music]
00:03:52 [door opening]
00:03:55 [music]
00:03:59 You did it.
00:04:01 Sit down. I'm going to get you some water, okay?
00:04:04 Actually, I just think I'm going to be late. I'm upstairs.
00:04:07 Of course. Wherever you want.
00:04:10 I'm sorry.
00:04:11 Don't be. You go rest. Okay? I'll take care of everything.
00:04:16 You go on. I'll be right up.
00:04:19 Okay?
00:04:21 I love you.
00:04:23 I love you too.
00:04:25 [music]
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00:04:53 All I want to do is sleep.
00:04:57 Life used to be brunches and selfies on the beach.
00:05:00 I just need to find a new normal.
00:05:04 A new perfect.
00:05:06 Right after I get some sleep.
00:05:09 [alarm clock beeping]
00:05:20 I don't know how people can do this every two hours.
00:05:25 I guess I'm lucky that I don't have to do it alone.
00:05:32 While I spent the last eight and a half months
00:05:34 suffering from mood swings, bizarre cravings, and constant discomfort,
00:05:39 Bill was nothing but attentive.
00:05:42 I guess he's earned a break.
00:05:44 From what I hear, we won't get another one until our kid grows up and moves out.
00:05:50 [music]
00:06:10 I haven't taken my medicine for a year,
00:06:13 so now I can get a little obsessive about things.
00:06:17 I mean, who doesn't, right?
00:06:20 Who doesn't?
00:06:22 Sometimes it's the little things.
00:06:25 God, he's shitting me.
00:06:27 [alarm clock beeping]
00:06:30 I check the locks, sometimes a lot.
00:06:33 And I'm sure to close every single door in the house.
00:06:37 Setting the TV volume to an even number,
00:06:40 or rearranging ornaments and place settings.
00:06:43 God, don't get me started on making sure all the photos in the house are level.
00:06:49 But sometimes it's a little more than that.
00:06:53 Sometimes I get this irrational fear that someone is watching me,
00:06:58 or stalking me.
00:07:00 I know it's an irrational fear, but it doesn't stop me from checking everything.
00:07:07 I don't know what an extreme case would look like for me,
00:07:10 but God, I hope I never find out.
00:07:13 I haven't taken my medicine.
00:07:16 [music]
00:07:43 It's only when I know that everything's perfect that I can finally be calm.
00:07:50 But when is anything ever perfect?
00:07:54 It doesn't stop me from trying, though.
00:07:57 [music]
00:08:12 Everyone told me that having a child would change my life forever.
00:08:17 I guess I didn't realize how much Elizabeth would change mine.
00:08:25 [alarm clock beeping]
00:08:34 [snoring]
00:08:57 [door opening]
00:09:15 [alarm clock beeping]
00:09:23 [door closing]
00:09:27 [alarm clock beeping]
00:09:39 [gasp]
00:09:45 Oh, God.
00:09:51 [music]
00:10:20 [snoring]
00:10:32 I just woke up from the worst nightmare I've ever had.
00:10:35 God, it felt so real.
00:10:38 I could hear her crying, but something wasn't right.
00:10:41 I didn't feel connected to her at all.
00:10:45 But I can't think about that now.
00:10:49 I'm back to real life.
00:10:52 My cub needs her mother.
00:10:55 What?
00:10:57 Nothing. It's just--
00:10:59 You did it.
00:11:01 We have a baby.
00:11:13 So, uh, did you get some sleep last night?
00:11:16 I just slept like a baby. As in, up every two hours, crabby, kind of wanting my mommy.
00:11:24 I feel like I just woke up after a college bender.
00:11:33 So, uh, you start your meds yet?
00:11:38 Not yet. I just, um, I'm not sure which will last time.
00:11:44 The new pills should be okay. It's the, um, blue ones.
00:11:48 They're in my purse. I keep forgetting I have them.
00:11:52 Those ones are a little different. They should kick in in about ten to fifteen minutes.
00:11:59 You know, I, uh, I'm taking what you're offering as confidence.
00:12:03 Bill, no. Confidence is too important.
00:12:07 If I need anything, I'll call Cece, okay?
00:12:11 We're good here. So you are going.
00:12:15 You sure?
00:12:18 Yeah.
00:12:21 It's only a week.
00:12:24 We won't even know that it's your gone.
00:12:29 Plus, I, um, I was thinking about doing some painting this weekend.
00:12:34 Yeah?
00:12:36 Hm. You inspired?
00:12:39 I have some ideas.
00:12:42 You, uh, been checking the locks again?
00:12:47 Sometimes.
00:12:49 I heard you're counting too, Adeline.
00:12:51 Bill, I'm perfect.
00:12:56 Okay, but if you need anything, anything at all, you call me.
00:12:59 Or Cece, or heaven forbid, your mother.
00:13:03 Oh, things will never be that bad.
00:13:06 Thank God.
00:13:08 Um, is that the new crib?
00:13:12 No, it's not. It hasn't arrived yet. It's on back order.
00:13:16 So I pulled the old one out of storage.
00:13:29 Shit.
00:13:31 Babe, I meant to take that off.
00:13:35 I'm sorry.
00:13:40 Babe, I'm sorry about earlier with the crib and you going into labor.
00:13:46 Just slipped my mind. Idiot.
00:13:50 It's fine. You just caused a little freak out.
00:13:54 But I got through it.
00:13:58 Do you want to talk about it?
00:14:02 Adeline? Adeline?
00:14:05 Huh? Oh, um.
00:14:09 I'm okay.
00:14:13 Spent a little quality time with this rest ball earlier, so I'm okay. Really.
00:14:20 Do you want to talk about it?
00:14:25 That's my ride.
00:14:27 Okay.
00:14:29 Love you.
00:14:30 Love you.
00:14:31 Bill.
00:14:35 Don't you want to give your newborn daughter a kiss goodbye?
00:14:37 Of course.
00:14:39 I do.
00:14:41 Hey.
00:14:44 What's wrong?
00:14:47 I don't want to leave you alone.
00:14:51 I know.
00:14:54 But Elizabeth and I will be okay.
00:14:59 Have a safe trip.
00:15:02 Bye.
00:15:04 And here come the waterworks.
00:15:23 Baby blues is what they call it.
00:15:25 Add that to my list of problems.
00:15:28 I just hope this is the worst of it.
00:15:30 And it passes soon.
00:15:34 Hello?
00:15:46 [Crying]
00:15:50 [Sniffling]
00:15:55 [Sigh]
00:15:59 [Baby crying]
00:16:04 [Crying]
00:16:09 [Baby crying]
00:16:14 [Baby crying]
00:16:20 Hello?
00:16:21 Hey, I've been calling you, girl.
00:16:24 I know.
00:16:25 I'm sorry. I'm just still adjusting.
00:16:31 I forgive you.
00:16:33 And I'm so sorry I didn't make it back in time to be there.
00:16:35 You were supposed to wait until I got back.
00:16:39 Hey, how is it?
00:16:41 Childbirth.
00:16:44 Not like I expected.
00:16:48 Only a hundred times more painful.
00:16:50 Hey.
00:16:52 You know, my hormones were really out of control, remember?
00:16:55 And I could not have gotten through that without you.
00:16:58 And I'm here for you, too.
00:17:03 Thank you.
00:17:05 Okay.
00:17:07 Well, sweetie, what are you doing today?
00:17:10 I was thinking that we could get takeout from Carozzo's and catch up.
00:17:13 I'm dying to meet the baby.
00:17:16 Oh, um, we're not really up for visitors just yet.
00:17:21 You sure you're okay?
00:17:24 Yeah.
00:17:25 I'm fine.
00:17:27 Everything's perfect.
00:17:29 Well, hey, if you're not, there's no shame in it.
00:17:32 I mean, nobody's really perfect, you know?
00:17:37 We'll be fine.
00:17:39 As long as we can survive until Bill gets home, everything will be perfect.
00:17:44 Survive?
00:17:46 Hey, Adeline, what do you mean?
00:17:49 I have to go home now, Cece.
00:17:52 Thank you for calling.
00:18:04 [Alarm clock beeping]
00:18:18 Nobody's really perfect, you know?
00:18:22 I'm sorry.
00:18:42 [Gunshot]
00:19:11 [Door slams]
00:19:13 I'm aching for a nap.
00:19:16 This sure would be easier with Bill around.
00:19:19 But his career is riding on this conference.
00:19:26 It's not his fault Elizabeth came early.
00:19:35 Oh, Bill, what did you do?
00:19:37 My husband told me he'd ordered some things for the baby, but he didn't tell me he went overboard.
00:19:42 My sweet husband told me to put all the packages aside and that he'd deal with them when he gets home.
00:19:50 [Baby crying]
00:19:59 I am so tired and this baby won't shut up!
00:20:07 Shut up. Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up!
00:20:11 [Baby crying]
00:20:39 I could use something to take the edge off.
00:20:42 A glass of wine, maybe two.
00:20:45 Hell, why not the whole fucking bottle?
00:20:48 But I won't.
00:20:51 I won't contaminate my milk.
00:20:53 No eggs and no wine.
00:21:22 [Pouring]
00:21:42 I guess I just need to find other ways to relax and feel like my old self, however briefly.
00:21:49 I still have painting, I suppose.
00:22:17 As obsessed as I can be with even numbers, locked doors, and symmetrical designs,
00:22:22 painting is the only outlet I have to break all my own rules.
00:22:32 I can be free and express myself in ways that I can't otherwise, not even while journaling.
00:22:39 It's my true therapy.
00:22:55 I can create a world where things can be perfect, just as they should be.
00:23:00 Perfection may be out of reach in my daily life, but not for my subjects.
00:23:08 It scares me sometimes how easily I can get lost in my own fantasy.
00:23:13 I get so lost sometimes that I fear I'll never find my way back.
00:23:18 Sometimes.
00:23:20 [Pouring]
00:23:43 [Sigh]
00:23:50 [Slow, eerie music]
00:24:03 [Crickets chirping]
00:24:13 [Sigh]
00:24:30 [Distorted, eerie music]
00:24:42 [Suspenseful music]
00:24:52 [Door opening]
00:24:58 [Suspenseful music]
00:25:09 [Door closing]
00:25:19 [Door closing]
00:25:29 [Sigh]
00:25:35 [Whispering]
00:25:53 [Whispering]
00:25:57 [Distorted, eerie music]
00:26:21 [Baby crying]
00:26:28 God, none of this feels normal.
00:26:31 I'm only bonding.
00:26:34 Ugh, what's wrong with you, Adeline?
00:26:37 She's just a baby.
00:26:40 Come on, you can do it. Just fall asleep a little bit.
00:26:45 I can't take any more crying. It's been over an hour now.
00:26:50 Please, just go to bed for a moment. Just go to bed.
00:26:54 I wonder if other new mothers feel like this.
00:26:58 Ugh, I just can't take the screaming anymore.
00:27:03 [Baby crying]
00:27:07 Please, please tell me this is going to end one day.
00:27:10 It can't always be like this.
00:27:13 How's my little angel?
00:27:15 Bless you, Phil. So is the baby. How was the conference?
00:27:20 It was a little overwhelming, to be honest.
00:27:23 I never have an issue speaking in front of large crowds.
00:27:27 I mean, even I get, you know, stage fright sometimes.
00:27:30 [Laughing] Apparently so.
00:27:32 So, you doing okay?
00:27:35 Yeah, still, I'm fine. I'm a tough...
00:27:39 girl.
00:27:41 I know you are.
00:27:43 Oh, you know, you wouldn't believe this. Walter Fishman is finally retiring.
00:27:48 What? Why now? He's only a hundred.
00:27:51 He's probably got, what, 50 more good years in him?
00:27:54 He's 75, Adam. Can you imagine?
00:27:57 Don't you ever let me go that long. You promise?
00:27:59 I promise. 70 tops.
00:28:02 [Doorbell rings]
00:28:03 Ugh, that's the doorbell. Probably more of your impulse buys.
00:28:07 Probably. Listen, when the packet plate comes, just go to the center of the side.
00:28:10 I'll handle it when I get home, alright?
00:28:13 We'll see. I have a list of other things for you to do first.
00:28:16 I love you.
00:28:17 I love you.
00:28:19 [Coughs]
00:28:21 [Distant voices]
00:28:27 [Door creaks open]
00:28:30 [Distant voices]
00:28:35 [Footsteps]
00:28:40 [Sighs]
00:28:50 [Sighs]
00:28:51 [Door opens]
00:28:53 [Footsteps]
00:28:59 [Footsteps]
00:29:08 [Glass shatters]
00:29:09 [Screams]
00:29:11 [Glass shatters]
00:29:12 [Glass shatters]
00:29:13 Shh. Shh.
00:29:16 [Glass shatters]
00:29:17 [Glass shatters]
00:29:20 Oh my God.
00:29:22 [Groans]
00:29:26 [Door opens]
00:29:27 [Doorbell rings]
00:29:28 [Gasps]
00:29:29 [Glass shatters]
00:29:31 [Gasps]
00:29:32 [Glass shatters]
00:29:35 [Doorbell rings]
00:29:37 [Glass shatters]
00:29:38 [Doorbell rings]
00:29:39 [Gasps]
00:29:40 [Glass shatters]
00:29:41 [Gasps]
00:29:42 [Glass shatters]
00:29:43 [Gasps]
00:29:44 [Gasps]
00:29:45 [Gasps]
00:29:46 (dramatic music)
00:29:48 (electronic beeping)
00:29:51 (electronic beeping)
00:29:54 (electronic beeping)
00:29:57 (electronic beeping)
00:30:02 (electronic beeping)
00:30:05 (electronic beeping)
00:30:08 (electronic beeping)
00:30:11 (crying)
00:30:33 (crying)
00:30:35 Sometimes nothing works.
00:30:46 And when the pain doesn't go away, I feel helpless.
00:31:01 Like I'm all out of options.
00:31:03 Meanwhile, it's more than just my brain.
00:31:15 The headaches are back, and something else seems off.
00:31:20 This really is a lot for me.
00:31:23 I feel like I'm heading into a downward spiral.
00:31:26 Meanwhile, Bill's probably rubbing elbows
00:31:27 with millionaires over shampoo and conditioner.
00:31:30 Champagne and caviar.
00:31:32 Okay, that's not fair.
00:31:36 He did offer to stay.
00:31:38 He really wanted to.
00:31:40 I could see it in his eyes when he left.
00:31:42 His concern and sadness, perhaps.
00:31:45 Maybe that's why I pushed him to go.
00:31:50 Maybe I needed to prove to him that I could handle this.
00:31:53 Maybe I needed to prove to myself that I could handle this.
00:31:58 "Anything could be in there," said the playful puffin.
00:32:00 "It could be a slippery fish, or a wisecracking walrus,
00:32:03 "or even a water-wading whale."
00:32:06 The happy little harp seal pulled himself closer
00:32:10 to the ice for a better look.
00:32:13 "If I could use a last wish for anything,
00:32:16 "anything in the world," said the pup.
00:32:18 "I know exactly who I would wish to see."
00:32:23 (ominous music)
00:32:25 - Come on.
00:32:35 Breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe.
00:32:38 Come on.
00:32:39 Breathe, come on.
00:32:44 (baby crying)
00:32:47 Now, try to relax.
00:33:13 (baby crying)
00:33:16 A little higher than normal, but nothing too bad.
00:33:29 - Is this really necessary?
00:33:33 I only called about the baby.
00:33:36 - This is true, but the baby's fine.
00:33:39 In true fact, the well-being of a baby
00:33:42 often depends on the well-being of its mother.
00:33:44 - Right, but are you sure, though, about the choking?
00:33:47 - Oh, yes, it's very common.
00:33:49 Infants are born with a hyper-gag reflex.
00:33:53 When it happens, just let it pass.
00:33:57 Just the baby's position, maybe your own,
00:34:00 and resume feeding.
00:34:02 - Yeah, I knew that.
00:34:04 I just, um, I just forgot.
00:34:11 It's just, it all happened so fast, you know,
00:34:13 like, in that instant, it all, it all could've just...
00:34:16 I'm sorry, you probably think I'm crazy.
00:34:22 - I could tell you stories about what lengths
00:34:24 I've seen mothers go to to protect their young.
00:34:26 It happens in nature, you know?
00:34:29 Polar bears, for example.
00:34:33 The moms usually have two cubs,
00:34:36 and they'd sacrifice anything to keep 'em alive.
00:34:39 (crickets chirping)
00:34:41 - So, how are you feeling?
00:34:44 Are you getting enough sleep?
00:34:46 - I mean, does any parent?
00:34:49 - Touche.
00:34:50 Are you eating, exercising, meditating?
00:34:56 - Uh, I did start writing in my journal again.
00:34:59 It helps, I think.
00:35:01 - Good, good, and you're staying off the prescriptions?
00:35:08 - Yeah, yes, I haven't taken any.
00:35:12 I don't want to, you know, after last time.
00:35:16 - Adeline, that was a completely different situation.
00:35:22 - Yeah, because I aborted him.
00:35:26 - It wasn't your fault, the fetus--
00:35:30 - Miles, his name was Miles.
00:35:35 Miles had severe cardiac abnormalities.
00:35:40 It was no longer a viable pregnancy.
00:35:42 We took the best option.
00:35:45 It wasn't your fault.
00:35:46 - I know, I know.
00:35:51 I'm sorry, I just, I think about it.
00:35:57 A lot.
00:36:00 Everything was so perfect.
00:36:05 I don't understand.
00:36:06 Why him?
00:36:11 Was it the meds?
00:36:15 Was it me?
00:36:17 Was it something that I did?
00:36:20 - It wasn't anything that anyone could have done.
00:36:22 - He, he would have been due 60 years later.
00:36:33 60 years ago last week.
00:36:35 He would have been six.
00:36:38 I sometimes wonder what my life would have been like
00:36:45 if he would have lived.
00:36:46 I think about it every day.
00:36:50 - You shouldn't do that to yourself.
00:36:57 Besides, if he'd lived,
00:36:59 who knows how it would have affected your life?
00:37:03 You could have missed out on this
00:37:05 beautiful bundle of joy right here.
00:37:07 - Sure, but it's not all I think about.
00:37:17 I also wonder what my life would have been like
00:37:23 without either of them.
00:37:25 And then I get to thinking,
00:37:29 did I will that to happen?
00:37:32 - No, absolutely not.
00:37:35 - What if I did?
00:37:36 - Stop.
00:37:39 You loved your baby, Miles.
00:37:42 You love both your children.
00:37:45 You're just having an episode.
00:37:48 - It's just so much harder without the pills.
00:37:54 You know, I wish I could just take one.
00:38:00 At least just one, Doctor.
00:38:02 - That's not in your best interest right now, all right?
00:38:06 I know it's hard, but this will pass.
00:38:11 - I'm just so afraid that something might happen.
00:38:15 - Like what?
00:38:17 - I don't know.
00:38:19 Sometimes things just happen, you know?
00:38:22 Or what if I do something?
00:38:29 - Are you afraid you may harm yourself or your baby?
00:38:33 - No, I know.
00:38:36 - Have you been seeing things?
00:38:42 You would tell me, right?
00:38:49 - Yes, yeah.
00:38:51 Yes, of course, Doctor.
00:38:54 I just wondered, so.
00:38:56 - Okay.
00:38:59 (dramatic music)
00:39:01 Well, remember that there's a after hours number
00:39:03 you can call if you need to.
00:39:05 And in the meantime, I can assure you
00:39:09 that your baby is in perfect health.
00:39:11 And you have nothing to fear, but fear itself.
00:39:15 (Miles sighs)
00:39:22 (dramatic music)
00:39:27 - You can drink the whole bottle for Mommy
00:39:29 without scaring her half to death, right?
00:39:31 - No more scares for Mommy.
00:39:34 (dramatic music)
00:39:38 (Miles sighs)
00:39:41 (dramatic music)
00:39:43 (dramatic music)
00:40:01 (Miles gasps)
00:40:03 (dramatic music)
00:40:06 (Miles panting)
00:40:11 (dramatic music)
00:40:17 (baby crying)
00:40:27 (dramatic music)
00:40:29 (Miles gasps)
00:40:32 (dramatic music)
00:40:35 (Miles gasps)
00:40:40 (dramatic music)
00:40:43 (Miles panting)
00:40:45 (Miles sighs)
00:40:49 (dramatic music)
00:40:53 (Miles crying)
00:41:00 (dramatic music)
00:41:03 - I feel like I'm starting to unravel.
00:41:13 I'm seeing things, the worst things.
00:41:16 I've read about this, it's not uncommon.
00:41:20 God, I wish I had someone to talk to about this.
00:41:23 But if I can just make it a few more days,
00:41:26 Bill will be home and we can deal with this together.
00:41:29 Just hold on, Adeline.
00:41:31 We can get through this, just a little bit longer.
00:41:34 (dramatic music)
00:41:37 (dramatic music)
00:41:55 (Miles sighs)
00:41:58 (dramatic music)
00:42:00 (dramatic music)
00:42:03 (dramatic music)
00:42:06 (dramatic music)
00:42:28 (dramatic music)
00:42:31 (Miles panting)
00:42:48 (Miles panting)
00:42:53 (dramatic music)
00:42:56 One, two, one, five, six, seven, eight.
00:43:04 (dramatic music)
00:43:07 (Miles gasps)
00:43:21 (dramatic music)
00:43:24 (dramatic music)
00:43:44 (Miles panting)
00:43:47 (dramatic music)
00:43:53 - It was just a nightmare, babe.
00:44:06 - It wasn't a nightmare, Bill.
00:44:07 - (sighs) I'm just saying it's 3.30 in the morning.
00:44:11 - Somebody was trying to break into our house.
00:44:13 It happened.
00:44:14 Otherwise, how do you explain the broken wine glass?
00:44:16 I didn't dream that.
00:44:18 - I don't know.
00:44:20 - I'm calling the police.
00:44:21 - Oh, well, hold on a second.
00:44:23 Let's just take a minute, all right?
00:44:25 Let's think about this.
00:44:26 There has to be a logical explanation, right?
00:44:30 You said the doors were unlocked.
00:44:32 - Yes, and it was open.
00:44:33 - And no one entered the house, right?
00:44:35 - No, I mean, I don't think so, but I heard,
00:44:38 I thought I heard...
00:44:43 - Adeline?
00:44:44 - I didn't see anybody come in, but they could have.
00:44:49 - How?
00:44:50 - What?
00:44:51 What difference does that make?
00:44:53 - You're checking locks again.
00:44:56 When was the last time you checked before that?
00:44:58 - I don't know, 1, 1.30, why?
00:45:01 - And were they locked?
00:45:02 And they were locked?
00:45:06 - Yes.
00:45:07 - Exactly.
00:45:10 (sighs)
00:45:12 You're saying they were locked.
00:45:17 How could they be unlocked?
00:45:20 - They couldn't be, right?
00:45:22 Adeline?
00:45:26 - Maybe they picked the locks or something, I don't know.
00:45:29 And what about the animals downstairs?
00:45:32 - What animals, Adeline?
00:45:33 - The ceramic animals, Bill, the penguins, the polar bears.
00:45:37 They were all mixed up and facing different ways,
00:45:39 and I thought maybe I imagined it, but...
00:45:41 - Whoa, whoa, whoa, wait, hold on, you imagined it?
00:45:46 - After tonight, somebody has been in our house, Bill.
00:45:50 Look, I saw what I saw, okay?
00:45:55 Why don't you believe me?
00:45:56 - Listen, I do believe you.
00:45:59 I believe you heard something, but I don't believe--
00:46:00 - That is not what I meant.
00:46:02 - Listen, I'm coming home, all right?
00:46:07 I'm coming home.
00:46:10 - Get your next flight out.
00:46:11 - Bill, no.
00:46:13 - I'm about to tell me.
00:46:17 What the fuck am I supposed to do, Adeline?
00:46:19 Please, please, I'm out of answers.
00:46:21 - You have to finish.
00:46:23 - Sorry.
00:46:26 I just haven't gotten any sleep, and...
00:46:29 I guess I'm just preaching to the choir.
00:46:32 Okay, listen.
00:46:35 I'm gonna call security.
00:46:38 I'm gonna have them come by,
00:46:39 check on things, if anything else happens,
00:46:42 call the police.
00:46:43 - Yeah.
00:46:46 Okay, sure.
00:46:50 - Okay, good.
00:46:52 - I'm gonna try and get some sleep.
00:46:57 - Good, yeah, get some rest.
00:47:01 Oh, and please take your pills if you haven't yet.
00:47:04 All right?
00:47:07 I love you.
00:47:08 - I love you too.
00:47:10 (Adeline sobs)
00:47:23 (Adeline sighs)
00:47:26 (phone rings)
00:47:52 (phone beeps)
00:47:55 - Hello?
00:47:58 - Hey.
00:48:00 - Hey.
00:48:01 - Just got off the phone with the security office.
00:48:03 - What'd they say?
00:48:05 - I'm not finding anything.
00:48:08 The manager said there was some new kid in the complex
00:48:10 that we're probably just screwing around.
00:48:13 - Screwing around?
00:48:14 - They said they're gonna do extra patrol
00:48:15 for a couple of days.
00:48:17 I mean, that was the best they could do.
00:48:19 Besides, they didn't have any better news.
00:48:22 - (sighs) Whatever, Bill.
00:48:24 I'll call you later.
00:48:26 Love you.
00:48:27 I feel like I'm losing my mind.
00:48:30 I'm starting to lose grip on reality.
00:48:33 God, maybe Bill was right.
00:48:34 Maybe this is all in my head
00:48:35 and I should just get back on the meds.
00:48:37 But I can't, not yet.
00:48:41 If I do it, I don't know what they'll do to me.
00:48:45 (dramatic music)
00:48:48 (explosion booms)
00:48:51 (dramatic music)
00:48:54 (dramatic music)
00:48:58 (dramatic music)
00:49:01 (dramatic music)
00:49:03 (dramatic music)
00:49:06 (dramatic music)
00:49:10 (dramatic music)
00:49:15 (dramatic music)
00:49:19 (dramatic music)
00:49:24 (dramatic music)
00:49:31 (dramatic music)
00:49:34 (dramatic music)
00:49:37 (dramatic music)
00:49:40 (dramatic music)
00:49:50 (dramatic music)
00:49:56 (dramatic music)
00:50:00 (dramatic music)
00:50:04 (dramatic music)
00:50:07 (dramatic music)
00:50:10 (dramatic music)
00:50:22 (dramatic music)
00:50:29 (dramatic music)
00:50:35 (dramatic music)
00:50:38 (dramatic music)
00:50:46 (dramatic music)
00:50:50 (dramatic music)
00:51:04 (dramatic music)
00:51:06 (dramatic music)
00:51:14 (dramatic music)
00:51:22 (dramatic music)
00:51:32 (baby crying)
00:51:34 (dramatic music)
00:51:37 (baby crying)
00:51:41 (dramatic music)
00:51:44 (baby crying)
00:51:49 (dramatic music)
00:51:51 (baby crying)
00:51:54 (dramatic music)
00:51:57 (baby crying)
00:51:59 (dramatic music)
00:52:02 (baby crying)
00:52:05 (dramatic music)
00:52:07 (baby crying)
00:52:10 (dramatic music)
00:52:13 (baby crying)
00:52:15 (dramatic music)
00:52:18 (baby crying)
00:52:20 (dramatic music)
00:52:23 (baby crying)
00:52:25 - Wait, wait, go back.
00:52:27 The gun safe was open.
00:52:29 I must've left it unlocked when I opened it the other day.
00:52:32 - Opened for what?
00:52:34 - I wanted to see it, you know,
00:52:38 make sure it was there in case.
00:52:41 - Damn it, Madeline.
00:52:42 Thank God you're okay,
00:52:43 but I mean, did you at least call the police?
00:52:46 - Yeah, they're on their way.
00:52:47 - Okay, that's good.
00:52:50 - Are you sorry?
00:52:53 - What?
00:52:54 - Are you sorry that you didn't believe me?
00:52:56 (dishes clatter)
00:52:59 - I never said I didn't hate you.
00:53:01 (sighs)
00:53:03 I'll see if I can catch a red eye.
00:53:06 - No, Bill, you're almost done.
00:53:09 Everything's perfect.
00:53:11 - Are you sure?
00:53:14 - Yes, I'm sure.
00:53:15 - Okay, well, I'm gonna call that security office
00:53:19 and rip the fucking new one.
00:53:21 In the meantime, I'm going to call the maid
00:53:24 and see if she can make a special trip.
00:53:26 - I gave her the week off.
00:53:29 Her daughter has the flu, remember?
00:53:30 - Oh, shit.
00:53:32 That's right.
00:53:32 Okay, how about this?
00:53:34 Go ahead and call my mom
00:53:35 and she'll stay with you till I get back, all right?
00:53:37 - No, no, no.
00:53:39 I said I'm fine, okay?
00:53:40 - Madeline.
00:53:43 - I am perfectly capable of handling this by myself.
00:53:47 I know how to take care of my baby.
00:53:48 - Our baby?
00:53:49 - I'm gonna finish cleaning.
00:53:53 Maybe give the baby a bath.
00:53:55 I'll see you Sunday.
00:53:56 - Madeline, Madeline, stay on the phone.
00:53:57 Madeline?
00:53:58 (phone clatters)
00:54:03 (ominous music)
00:54:08 (phone buzzes)
00:54:15 - Bill, I said I don't wanna talk right now.
00:54:19 Hello?
00:54:23 (ominous music)
00:54:25 - Look, I'll put in the report,
00:54:40 but without a description and no forced entry,
00:54:43 there's not a whole lot we can do right now.
00:54:45 - Okay, but what about the phone calls?
00:54:47 - We'll run the number.
00:54:48 - So that's it?
00:54:48 - I'm sorry.
00:54:50 I wish there was more we could do.
00:54:53 Look, if you can think of anything,
00:54:55 give us a call, okay?
00:54:56 (door creaks)
00:55:02 (ominous music)
00:55:04 - The best thing about picking up the pieces
00:55:12 after completely falling apart
00:55:13 is that it gives you a sense of control again.
00:55:16 You can rebuild things however you want them.
00:55:20 I spent the last few days losing my shit,
00:55:22 but I knew I couldn't stay there.
00:55:25 And look, this terrible thing that happened,
00:55:29 I survived it, and I will continue to.
00:55:32 I have to keep it together for my family.
00:55:35 So we're starting over.
00:55:38 Everything can feel like new again.
00:55:40 Good, great even.
00:55:43 In a word, well, you know, perfect.
00:55:48 Except it's not perfect, is it?
00:55:51 You can never put things back together like they were.
00:55:57 And it can happen again.
00:56:00 I can't keep this up forever.
00:56:03 I know I'm not fooling anybody.
00:56:06 I'm losing it.
00:56:08 (ominous music)
00:56:13 (ominous music)
00:56:15 (ominous music)
00:56:18 (creature growls)
00:56:32 (creature snarls)
00:56:40 (creature growls)
00:56:42 (creature snarls)
00:56:45 (creature growls)
00:56:48 (sobs)
00:57:00 (sobs)
00:57:07 (sobs)
00:57:09 I'm sorry.
00:57:13 I have to.
00:57:20 (door slams)
00:57:29 (sniffles)
00:57:31 No.
00:57:33 No.
00:57:36 (sniffles)
00:57:39 No.
00:57:39 (sobs)
00:57:43 Oh no, no.
00:57:44 (sobs)
00:57:49 - Why are you doing this?
00:57:53 (creature growls)
00:58:04 (creature snarls)
00:58:07 (creature snarls)
00:58:18 (creature snarls)
00:58:33 (sniffles)
00:58:36 - You can't have us.
00:58:50 (creature snarls)
00:58:57 (sobs)
00:58:58 (creature snarls)
00:59:12 (door slams)
00:59:17 (door slams)
00:59:24 (creature snarls)
00:59:27 (creature snarls)
00:59:33 (creature snarls)
00:59:41 (creature snarls)
00:59:46 (creature snarls)
00:59:51 (door slams)
00:59:54 - Cece.
01:00:09 (gasps)
01:00:14 (gasps)
01:00:16 (breathing heavily)
01:00:19 (creature snarls)
01:00:46 - Mommy.
01:00:47 Wake up, Mommy, wake up.
01:00:51 (breathing heavily)
01:00:56 (door slams)
01:01:08 - Who's there?
01:01:11 Huh?
01:01:13 (breathing heavily)
01:01:16 How'd you get into my house?
01:01:22 - Silly, Mommy.
01:01:24 Stop playing.
01:01:25 Come cuddle with me.
01:01:27 (creature snarls)
01:01:29 - Miles?
01:01:41 (breathing heavily)
01:01:44 Hello?
01:01:51 (creature snarls)
01:01:54 (creature snarls)
01:01:57 (creature snarls)
01:02:11 You're not my son.
01:02:13 Miles, he...
01:02:15 He wasn't born.
01:02:18 - And yet, here I am.
01:02:20 - No.
01:02:24 We lost you.
01:02:26 - You didn't lose me, Mommy.
01:02:29 (breathing heavily)
01:02:32 I wasn't perfect, so you killed me.
01:02:36 - No.
01:02:37 - Remember?
01:02:38 - No.
01:02:39 - I like you, you're awesome.
01:02:41 (creature snarls)
01:02:44 - Pills?
01:02:54 These are the new ones.
01:02:59 They were in my purse.
01:03:01 But I moved them, didn't I?
01:03:04 (crying)
01:03:09 Sorry I couldn't save you.
01:03:11 (door slams)
01:03:18 (door creaks)
01:03:31 (crying)
01:03:33 - They should kick in in about 10 or 15 minutes.
01:03:51 - No.
01:03:51 No.
01:03:54 What?
01:03:55 (crying)
01:03:59 (ominous music)
01:04:01 It's okay.
01:04:08 (breathing heavily)
01:04:13 (door creaks)
01:04:26 (breathing heavily)
01:04:29 (door slams)
01:04:44 (breathing heavily)
01:04:49 (ominous music)
01:04:54 (breathing heavily)
01:04:57 (ominous music)
01:05:00 - Elizabeth.
01:05:22 (ominous music)
01:05:25 (crying)
01:05:28 ♪ Who can hear my cries ♪
01:05:40 - (laughs) It worked.
01:05:43 We made it, my love.
01:05:45 (crying)
01:05:47 (ominous music)
01:05:50 - Ready to see the world, sunshine?
01:05:57 ♪ Who can hear my cries ♪
01:06:01 ♪ Who ♪
01:06:06 (door slams)
01:06:16 ♪ Who can hear my cries ♪
01:06:19 ♪ Tears are falling like the waves in a blue ocean ♪
01:06:24 ♪ Tears are falling like the waves in a blue ocean ♪
01:06:43 ♪ Who ♪
01:06:46 ♪ Now I'm sinking deep ♪
01:06:49 ♪ Feels like yesterday I held you in my arms ♪
01:06:54 ♪ Who ♪
01:07:02 ♪ Who ♪
01:07:07 (ominous music)
01:07:10 (breathing heavily)
01:07:23 (ominous music)
01:07:35 (door slams)
01:07:37 - Bill?
01:07:44 (door squeaks)
01:07:48 (door slams)
01:07:52 - Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, baby.
01:07:54 Put the gun down, babe.
01:07:55 - Bill?
01:07:58 - Put the gun down, come here.
01:08:01 What happened here, Edward?
01:08:02 - I don't know.
01:08:03 - Let go.
01:08:04 What happened?
01:08:06 - What?
01:08:07 - Helen, what did you do?
01:08:08 - No.
01:08:13 It wasn't like this.
01:08:16 I-
01:08:17 - What the fuck, have you been drinking?
01:08:18 - No, no, it was the break-in, Bill.
01:08:20 - Look at this shit.
01:08:23 Baby powder fucking everywhere.
01:08:24 What's Elizabeth eating, huh?
01:08:26 And look at me.
01:08:29 Look at me.
01:08:30 You're not gonna take your pills, are you?
01:08:32 - No.
01:08:33 - What?
01:08:34 - The doctor told me not to, Bill.
01:08:36 - What are you talking about, Adeline?
01:08:38 - The doctor, he came to check on Elizabeth
01:08:39 and he told me not to so that I wouldn't hurt her.
01:08:42 - Adeline, I am your doctor.
01:08:44 You fucking insisted on it.
01:08:46 (gun fires)
01:08:48 Shit.
01:08:49 It's a fucking mess.
01:08:51 Fuck.
01:08:53 Fuck.
01:08:55 Adeline, you knew.
01:08:59 You knew having the baby would exacerbate your condition.
01:09:02 You knew this.
01:09:03 Look at her.
01:09:04 Look at me.
01:09:06 You're dehydrated.
01:09:06 When's the last time you ate?
01:09:07 - Stop.
01:09:08 - When's the last time you had water besides this?
01:09:09 - No, I don't know.
01:09:11 - You promised you'd tell me.
01:09:15 You promised me and Elizabeth, you promised.
01:09:18 (whispering)
01:09:21 Where's Elizabeth at?
01:09:28 - What?
01:09:30 - Our kid, where's our kid at?
01:09:31 - No, no, no, no, no.
01:09:33 - Stop it.
01:09:34 - Come here, come here, please.
01:09:35 - Stop it.
01:09:36 (dramatic music)
01:09:38 Oh no.
01:09:51 - No.
01:09:52 - Oh God, no.
01:09:53 No, not our baby.
01:09:56 (dramatic music)
01:09:59 I'm sorry.
01:10:10 - No.
01:10:11 (dramatic music)
01:10:13 - Another delusion and the worst one yet.
01:10:19 I went right over the edge.
01:10:22 When thoughts of harming my daughter
01:10:23 evolved to harming myself,
01:10:26 I realized that losing her and Miles would be too much.
01:10:29 I couldn't bear that.
01:10:30 But I think it's over.
01:10:35 I think the pill, I hope it worked.
01:10:38 I guess I never really dealt with my grief before.
01:10:46 I didn't know how.
01:10:48 It just became easier for me to take pills,
01:10:50 fixate on obsessive behaviors,
01:10:53 and let reality fade away.
01:10:55 But I think I can finally just let things be.
01:10:59 I see now how unsustainable perfection is.
01:11:05 I was never perfect.
01:11:07 There's no such thing.
01:11:09 There's just life.
01:11:10 And when living it, shit happens sometimes.
01:11:14 Whether pointless and mundane,
01:11:16 or in a way that's cruel and earth shattering.
01:11:18 And when you're dealt a hand like that,
01:11:24 I think you're left with a choice.
01:11:26 You can find a way to live with it,
01:11:29 or you can let it destroy you.
01:11:31 Rather, you can destroy yourself and everything about you.
01:11:36 Everything in your life.
01:11:37 It sounds like an easy choice,
01:11:46 but sometimes it's not.
01:11:47 I, like many others,
01:11:50 couldn't trust my brain to tell me the truth.
01:11:53 And what's worse,
01:11:55 I couldn't tell anyone what I was going through.
01:11:58 What would people say
01:12:00 if I told them what I saw and felt?
01:12:02 They'd say I was crazy.
01:12:05 They'd call me a monster.
01:12:07 Maybe they'd even try and take Elizabeth.
01:12:11 But I'm not a monster.
01:12:14 I'm a mother, like so many others,
01:12:16 who went through some serious postpartum shit
01:12:19 and can't even talk about it.
01:12:21 We keep our mouths shut to avoid judgment,
01:12:23 so we won't be labeled unfit.
01:12:25 We ignore our own health to keep this deadly secret.
01:12:28 But sometimes people need help too.
01:12:33 And God, do I wish it was easier to ask for.
01:12:36 Talk about a perfect world.
01:12:38 Hey, girl.
01:12:40 But we have to try.
01:12:41 We have to open up to the people who care about us
01:12:44 and try and make the best of the world that we live in.
01:12:48 (paintbrush scratching)
01:12:52 We find ways to cope.
01:12:53 We take it day by day.
01:12:56 And in time, we improve.
01:12:59 We heal.
01:13:00 And we live on to fight another day.
01:13:02 We do it for our cubs,
01:13:05 like the great mother polar bear.
01:13:08 So, I'll paint.
01:13:10 I'll leave all my pain and my anger
01:13:13 and my broken heart on the canvas.
01:13:16 And with that, with every cathartic stroke
01:13:20 and every drop of pigment squeezed out of my very soul,
01:13:24 I'm set free.
01:13:25 Does that mean I'm cured?
01:13:28 No.
01:13:30 I'm just managing.
01:13:32 I'm getting by, maybe even improving a little.
01:13:37 I mean, Bill's prescriptions help too, obviously.
01:13:40 I read that they don't work for everyone,
01:13:43 but Bill was right.
01:13:44 After 15 minutes, these little blue pills
01:13:47 gave me something I haven't had for weeks.
01:13:49 Maybe not since we lost Miles.
01:13:52 They gave me hope.
01:13:54 So cool.
01:14:14 So cool.
01:14:15 And hope is just what I needed to save my family.
01:14:19 It saved my life.
01:14:24 - Adeline, I'm home.
01:14:32 Found this on the porch.
01:14:34 Just ordered this.
01:14:38 (Adeline laughs)
01:14:40 - Adeline.
01:14:45 - Adeline.
01:14:49 - And Elizabeth.
01:14:51 - Sorry, sorry.
01:14:54 I'm so sorry.
01:14:57 - It's okay.
01:15:00 - You okay?
01:15:01 - I'm perfect.
01:15:03 I'm good.
01:15:07 - Adeline.
01:15:08 - Daddy!
01:15:13 - This is right.
01:15:27 This is right.
01:15:32 (Adeline sobs)
01:15:35 This isn't right.
01:15:39 This isn't right.
01:15:53 - Adeline.
01:16:00 Adeline.
01:16:02 (dramatic music)
01:16:05 You're okay.
01:16:10 You're having another episode.
01:16:12 Focus on my voice and do your counting.
01:16:16 - No.
01:16:18 This isn't right.
01:16:19 - Adeline. - You're not real.
01:16:22 None of this is real.
01:16:24 Leave us alone.
01:16:25 - Afraid this is worse than we thought.
01:16:32 - Remember, Adeline.
01:16:35 Remember how you got here.
01:16:36 - No.
01:16:40 No, this isn't real.
01:16:42 This isn't real.
01:16:43 - You've had some trouble discerning what's real
01:16:46 from what's imaginary for a while now.
01:16:48 - No.
01:16:48 - You created an elaborate fantasy for yourself
01:16:54 to escape the fact that you...
01:16:56 It wasn't your fault, Adeline.
01:17:00 Adeline.
01:17:01 Now please,
01:17:03 give it here.
01:17:05 - No.
01:17:07 No, she's my baby.
01:17:10 - Go on.
01:17:14 Look for yourself.
01:17:15 (Adeline sobs)
01:17:22 (Adeline gasps)
01:17:30 (dramatic music)
01:17:33 - Where is she?
01:17:36 Where's Elizabeth?
01:17:40 Where's Elizabeth?
01:17:42 Please tell me.
01:17:43 - Maybe you should have a seat.
01:17:47 - No, Doctor, please tell me.
01:17:49 - I'm sorry.
01:17:53 Your baby died, Adeline.
01:17:55 (dramatic music)
01:17:57 - No.
01:18:00 No.
01:18:01 No.
01:18:02 No.
01:18:02 No.
01:18:03 No!
01:18:04 No!
01:18:06 (dramatic music)
01:18:08 No, no, no, no, no.
01:18:09 No, no.
01:18:11 (dramatic music)
01:18:14 (Adeline gasps)
01:18:20 (door clanks)
01:18:28 (Adeline gasps)
01:18:31 (dramatic music)
01:18:34 (maniacal laughing)
01:18:37 (dramatic music)
01:18:40 (Adeline sobs)
01:18:45 (dramatic music)
01:18:47 (Adeline sighs)
01:18:53 (dramatic music)
01:18:56 (door clanks)
01:18:58 (dramatic music)
01:19:01 (Adeline sobs)
01:19:08 (dramatic music)
01:19:11 (Adeline sobs)
01:19:23 (dramatic music)
01:19:26 (door creaks)
01:19:42 (dramatic music)
01:19:45 (door clanks)
01:19:52 (dramatic music)
01:19:54 - Cecil.
01:20:10 (phone rings)
01:20:12 (dramatic music)
01:20:15 Adeline, I'm so glad that you picked up your phone.
01:20:40 I have been trying to get in touch with you for a few days.
01:20:42 There was a nursery incident I was gonna stop by.
01:20:45 It was a whole thing.
01:20:47 Addie.
01:20:48 Ceci?
01:20:51 You okay?
01:20:53 - I won't stop.
01:20:55 - What won't stop?
01:20:57 - I won't stop until I do it.
01:21:01 - Do what?
01:21:09 (Adeline sighs)
01:21:11 - Adeline?
01:21:12 Hey.
01:21:13 I can't help you unless you tell me what's wrong, okay?
01:21:17 Hey.
01:21:18 Talk to me.
01:21:19 I lost them both.
01:21:21 I can't live with that.
01:21:22 Adeline, I want you to remember you're breathing, okay?
01:21:25 Take deep breaths.
01:21:28 Can you put the baby somewhere safe?
01:21:31 - I gave her two milligrams of lorazepam.
01:21:34 It's best to just let her rest.
01:21:38 - I'd like to say goodbye.
01:21:40 - Adeline.
01:21:41 Adeline, I want you to get on the phone with me, okay?
01:21:44 Adeline.
01:21:45 Adeline, I'm coming for you, okay?
01:21:49 (dramatic music)
01:21:52 - Hi, Dr. Williams.
01:21:55 - Addie!
01:21:59 Addie, stop it!
01:22:00 Whatever you're doing, I want you to sit down!
01:22:02 Addie, can you hear me?
01:22:04 Sweetheart, I'm coming to get you!
01:22:06 Okay, I'm gonna come, I'm gonna get you,
01:22:07 I'm gonna get the baby.
01:22:09 Addie!
01:22:10 Addie!
01:22:12 I'm Mary Stewart, the grief counselor here at St. Patrick's.
01:22:15 How is Adeline?
01:22:19 - She's devastated.
01:22:21 She keeps asking to see the baby.
01:22:24 - Pick the phone up!
01:22:25 Can you say something for me?
01:22:26 Addie, please!
01:22:28 - I need to be with her right now.
01:22:30 - Okay, I'll help.
01:22:30 I'll help.
01:22:31 Sweetheart, I'm here.
01:22:35 I'm almost here, okay?
01:22:36 Let's have a seat, please.
01:22:38 Addie, pick up your phone!
01:22:41 - This is what was supposed to happen, you know?
01:22:44 We did everything right this time.
01:22:47 Everything.
01:22:48 - Well, for starters,
01:22:53 she's gonna need comprehensive therapy.
01:22:55 - My head's gonna fucking break, girl.
01:23:03 - Adeline!
01:23:04 (clock ticking)
01:23:07 (baby crying)
01:23:14 - She insisted that she was still alive.
01:23:34 - I know what you're gonna say,
01:23:35 but I think Adeline could really benefit
01:23:37 from a reborn doll.
01:23:38 - What the fuck?
01:23:45 - I'm dying to meet the baby.
01:23:47 - Oh, um.
01:23:48 We're not really up for visitors just yet.
01:23:52 (clock ticking)
01:23:59 (dramatic music)
01:24:01 - It wasn't your fault.
01:24:09 As far as I'm concerned.
01:24:12 - It wasn't anybody's fault.
01:24:13 If something were to happen to Mama Bear,
01:24:19 then her cubs would surely die.
01:24:21 But if something were to happen to her cubs,
01:24:24 what would become of her mother?
01:24:28 Would she have the strength to survive?
01:24:30 - Adeline!
01:24:33 Adeline!
01:24:34 - Are you certain you wanna do this?
01:24:38 (baby crying)
01:24:46 (baby crying)
01:24:49 - And in time, we heal.
01:25:02 And we live on to fight our battles again another day.
01:25:06 Unfortunately, I don't think we'll ever win the war.
01:25:15 But we can still fight to protect our families.
01:25:19 Even at great sacrifice to ourselves, we fight.
01:25:25 We fight to the bitter end.
01:25:28 (gentle music)
01:25:40 (gentle music)
01:25:43 ♪ Who can hear my cry ♪
01:25:51 ♪ Tears are falling like the waves in a blue ocean ♪
01:25:56 ♪ Now I'm sinking deep ♪
01:26:02 ♪ Feels like yesterday I held you in my arms ♪
01:26:10 ♪ It's hard to let go ♪
01:26:12 ♪ I'm losing control ♪
01:26:14 ♪ I'm falling into pieces ♪
01:26:19 ♪ Don't go ♪
01:26:20 ♪ Living life without you ♪
01:26:25 ♪ Is the hardest thing I'll ever do ♪
01:26:30 ♪ Adeline, oh, Adeline, oh, Adeline ♪
01:26:37 ♪ She was the sun in my ocean ♪
01:26:41 ♪ I can't even sleep ♪
01:27:05 ♪ Will I ever see the lighthouse in this darkness ♪
01:27:10 ♪ Strong wind surrounds me ♪
01:27:16 ♪ But I'm daring to fly ♪
01:27:18 ♪ Like a butterfly in the rain ♪
01:27:23 ♪ Living life without you ♪
01:27:28 ♪ Is the hardest thing I'll ever do ♪
01:27:34 ♪ Adeline, oh, Adeline, oh, Adeline ♪
01:27:39 ♪ She was the sun in my ocean ♪
01:27:45 ♪ Silence is too loud ♪
01:27:48 ♪ But I can feel her heart beat ♪
01:27:53 ♪ I'll keep her in the bold of my broken heart ♪
01:28:01 ♪ She's the sun in my world ♪
01:28:06 ♪ Living life without you ♪
01:28:10 ♪ Is the hardest thing I'll ever do ♪
01:28:15 ♪ Adeline, oh, Adeline, oh, Adeline ♪
01:28:21 ♪ No ♪
01:28:27 ♪ Adeline, my Adeline, oh, Adeline ♪
01:28:32 ♪ She was the sun in my ocean ♪
01:28:37 [Music]
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